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Wednesday, May 23, 2007

hell above the surface

I was a stupid and idiotic girl today. I wrote the best essay I've ever written for this year...the most organised..and possibly the only decent one so far. And I just had to forget that I had my handphone in my pocket. And it just had to ring.

The irony is, no one called me. It was an automatic reminder that I have GP CT today.

Sean commented I'm a dramatic person last night. I should have taken that as a omen. I live in a dramatic family. Right this instance, I have something similar to a soap opera happening in the background. I've become smarter this time round though - I stayed out of it. It's the genes really...I have a dramatic grandmother, a dramatic mother, a father who's influenced by my mother and grandmother and thus become dramatic, and two dramatic sisters. and haoyi is smart enough to stay out of it too. so it's just grandma, mum and sis.

i really wish that i'm in a more normal environment. this just cannot be a normal family. it must be far from normal. it's difficult to imagine other families this way.
maybe i do blog too much. there are things that people normally wouldn't blog about but i do. coz i don't see the need to hide things away. it's a kind of survival tactic for me...so that i can live on with all these going on. only my friends read this blog anyway. i'm hardly what you consider an interesting girl for strangers to want to read this blog.
but really, despite how it may seem, what i blog about is only less than 50% of my life.

now, i worry. about whether my gp will get graded. and i can't even share that with my own dear mom. how wonderful. maybe i'll just keep it to myself once again.
anyway, thx sihui, siyun, my sis (who's busy being dramatic), sammie and 'you-know-who-you-are' for comforting me today. and srry victor and janice (if you happened to chance upon this entry) for my bad attitude today.

srry if i sound bitter on this post. i guess i am quite bitter now. and i think i really have split personality. i amaze myself at times. how i can laugh like that when i feel terrible inside. and yet at times, i simply cannot hold my emotions in? it doesn't make sense.

it's magic. it's quiet now that i'm finishing this post up. how long the silence will last? i donno.
i think i've mentioned frequent enough how often i hate my life.

Labels: life, rant, school

9:35 PM

THE PRINCESS

name; melissa chan meiyi
age; 18
bdae; 210490
location; singapore

hates; hypocrites, betrayers and traitors
loves;

dr...(+)

more;

ad...(+)

~~adp~~ ~~rgs~~ ~~rjc~~

~~1/1~~ 2F 3M 4M 5P 6Q ~~106~~ ~~206~~ ~~310~~ ~~410~~ ~~08S05B~~

~~purple house~~ buckle ~~buckle-buckley~~

adp: ~~it club~~ ~~library~~ ~~eng drama~~ ~~chinese dance~~ ~~swimming~~

rg: ~~handbells~~ ~~library~~ rjc: ~~film society~~ ~~chinese orchestra~~ japanese cultural club (once in jcc always in jcc!)

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I'm a girl, who's normal most of the time, but weird otherwise. My nickname in primary school was blurqueen, which was upgraded to BBQ Bizzarely Blurqueen in Secondary 2 during Primary 6 class reunion. I have a huge variety of interests, so I end up being very poor in time management.

random;
Friends, my brother and sisters, and my computer.
I take birthdays very seriously.
I love roses.
I love the late night.
I love manga and anime.
I love my cats, (schro)dinger and newton.
I love concerts.

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