iBleach- Soul Generation of Music

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

tired.

I think I'm generally a happier person right now. But sometimes, life is still difficult. Maybe it really is because of the age 17. And I have no one to tell anymore...ever since 'then'. It feel as though every time I allow myself to open up, I get hurt. Every single time I try to get closer to the family, to connect with mum, and maybe even dad, I get hurt even more. I just made my mum angry again, despite doing exactly what she wanted, answering every one of her question straight, not hiding a single detail. I want to give up. Maybe I'll just waste my life away. This is simply getting too tiring, trying to make my life better. Whatever I do, something is always wrong it. Or rather, maybe something is wrong with me, myself, the person.
I don't feel like blogging details anymore. I'm noticing that I'm starting to refrain from blogging about my problems in details. Am I changing again?

Work is piling...and my mood doesn't help. I'm always either obsessing, or something happens and i get too depressed. i need the holidays. desperate.

maybe i'll blog again later..when my mood gets better. this entry doesn't seem to have much substance.

Labels: rant

11:13 PM

THE PRINCESS

name; melissa chan meiyi
age; 18
bdae; 210490
location; singapore

hates; hypocrites, betrayers and traitors
loves;

dr...(+)

more;

ad...(+)

~~adp~~ ~~rgs~~ ~~rjc~~

~~1/1~~ 2F 3M 4M 5P 6Q ~~106~~ ~~206~~ ~~310~~ ~~410~~ ~~08S05B~~

~~purple house~~ buckle ~~buckle-buckley~~

adp: ~~it club~~ ~~library~~ ~~eng drama~~ ~~chinese dance~~ ~~swimming~~

rg: ~~handbells~~ ~~library~~ rjc: ~~film society~~ ~~chinese orchestra~~ japanese cultural club (once in jcc always in jcc!)

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I'm a girl, who's normal most of the time, but weird otherwise. My nickname in primary school was blurqueen, which was upgraded to BBQ Bizzarely Blurqueen in Secondary 2 during Primary 6 class reunion. I have a huge variety of interests, so I end up being very poor in time management.

random;
Friends, my brother and sisters, and my computer.
I take birthdays very seriously.
I love roses.
I love the late night.
I love manga and anime.
I love my cats, (schro)dinger and newton.
I love concerts.

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