Monday, April 21, 2008
I'm eighteen! It's now legal for me to drink, to watch M18 movies (and go into sex shops...though I don't really want to >.<). So yes.
This year's birthday is rather mixed feelings really. There are some rather obsessive stuff going on in my life (obsessive because it occupies like most of my thoughts)..but my birthday is nevertheless happy. Special thanks to one person especially, who made me forget unhappy stuff for most of the time today.
Anyway, went out with CQ, Daniel, Chaoyang, Ben...and maybe Sammie and Yining? Even though the two girls went shopping shortly after meeting up, and didn't even get to see Ben who came later. Was fun, even as I was emoing half the time. Sorry guys...I bet I ruined the mood a bit. Luckily there's Daniel to cheer the mood up, even if he did worsen my mood at one time. Haiz. LOL. Can't imagine Daniel grown up man. LOL.
So yea, we went to Chaoyang's house at night to celebrate his birthday (which is on the 23rd) and since my birthday comes before his, I get to celebrate mine too! Whee~ LOL. (According to CQ, that was partially the rationale for putting it on Saturday..so we can celebrate both our birthdays at the same time). It's weird though...to celebrate my birthday with the guys while sammie and yining weren't there. But oh well, sammie has training next day anyway.
Thanks CQ for the concern that night. And Ben...though I really don't know if he was kidding when he told CQ to make sure I'm alive the next day. Dot. LOL.
As for today, things were relatively great I suppose..Must be birthday luck. I forgot to do physics tutorial, and we ended up not going through it. CSE class test scripts were given out during lecture and I did pretty well for case study and passed for essay. So that was good too. Going through the scripts also meant that I didn't have to present the pairwork I did with Prila today. Which is good too since I hate presentations. So yay!
Thanks everyone who wished me happy birthday today! I wanted to list them one by one, but I lost track and...it wouldn't be very fair for me to miss out on any names right? LOL. So yup! I would put pictures of presents up too! But...no more phone = no more camera. Sigh. One day maybe. Anyway, thx WH, Raph for earrings and thx prila for the necklace, and thx teckie for the card! =))
RAPH GOT ME THE EARRINGS I'VE BEEN EYEING SINCE LAST MONTH =)))) ahhhh....i love it i love it i love it. can't stop looking at it. LOL.
Thanks again everyone~
still can't believe i'm eighteen already. wow.Labels: birthday
Saturday, April 19, 2008
This year, I told the entire little world who knew my parents personally NOT to remind them of my birthday. Just a little experiment to see if they would remember it by themselves. But so far, no signs of them remembering at all. None. Not at all. Fine, they have like 2 days more to remember...but I doubt that's going to happen. I'm like a little bit sad. Haiz.
Labels: life, rant
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Ahh...without (of a) it would be all Ts!
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Tomorrow there shall be the dreadful physics SPA Skill A. Probably even with extraordinary help I might just only manage to scrape a pass.
Anyway, happy stuff and sad stuff. I shall try to focus more energy on the happy stuff and spend less time developing negative energies on the sad (or rather troubling stuff). Yet there's only a limited time for me.
And then again, the limited amount of time isn't as I envisioned it to be. Because, I'm still not given a lot of space. But it's still better. I feel as though I'm gaining back a little bit of control. I feel as though I can think better now.
And today I finally got to do stuff that I haven't done in a long time now. That's good. I think.
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Anyway, there was sharing on the NS life during civics lesson today by 2 J4s. Was quite interesting, though i think a lot of girls ponned. LOL. Our class must have the guaiest girls lah, lol, since I don't think anyone ponned. But then again, perhaps that's because our CT was there? =P
NAPFA five items are alright..but no chance for a gold even if I retest my 2.4km run. ARGH. I am sad. And I hate being in "that time of the month" during NAPFA period. Unless I retest both my 2.4km run and 5 items. All I need to improve on is standing board jump. I mean, 2.4km run I just need to run faster by 2 seconds and I was having stomach cramps some more. And all my other items are alright so far. So shall I? It's the last NAPFA in my entire life afterall...But then, Stacy's right when she says it'll be a waste of time to retest everything..
I shall decide when the time comes bah. Now sleep. I'm tired.
Labels: life, school
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
I want to blog long, but I shouldn't, because I feel as though I might go too personal, too emotional.
What happened today seems to happen so frequently. Why so similar yet so different?
It's as if the Lord is signaling something...perhaps something on my defiance.I knew it was dangerous...so now what am I supposed to do?
Labels: K
Monday, April 14, 2008
I was PMSing. In fact, I am PMSing. And odd things happen on days when I PMS. But today is simply too weird, even for a PMS day.
Labels: random
Saturday, April 12, 2008
On Friday I was pissed with Econs lecture, of which I shall not repeat the details of what happened again, especially not online. But I was pissed. Not just pissed, but mega pissed. And I get super affected when I'm mega pissed. Especially when my mood equilibrium has been off balance for a long time since Wednesday already. The Econs lecture incident just tipped me off and I felt like I couldn't handle it without doing something about it. Too much negative energy was accumulating within me and I needed to expel them.
And so, I forfeited the whole of today, after the ORA walk-a-jogathon, and spent time hanging around people who knows how to have fun.
Roger is starting to form the impression as "The-One-With-Formidable-Board-Games". Playing flipping games are fun. Going to PI for the first time ever is nice. Having a friend like Raph who (replacing me) had to go through the experience of being bored in the middle of a thunderstorm for 6 hours is like possessing worldly treasures if not more. Knowing that Aaron Tan is a semi-otaku and plays parapara is refreshing. Hearing "Yesterday" once more after a break of two years, and actually going through the moves on parapara is simply the best ending to the day one (or rather, I) can ever wish for. (Oh. and I still owe raph a lunch.)After a day like this, even a mood of negative hundred percent would be raised to hundred percent, if not two hundred. (It was two hundred but dropped rapidly back to normal on the way to the mrt stations, and the mrt ride accelerated it even more.)
If this is a livejournal, and I am required to fill that little space below that says mood, the little icon that fits what I'm feeling now most would probably be "blessed".
I feel really blessed, because of the great friends I have now. Seriously. Even if this sounds cliche/mushy, but there are certain individuals (definitely not restricted to the ones i hung out with today) who are really endearing to me after the "going-to-be" two years in rjc. ok, thing is....I feel loved. Not that my parents or my primary school clique doesn't love me or anything like that..But.
I'm really glad to have been part of RG. I love RG. I'm proud of RG. But my experience in RG just isn't as great as most girls. The library was the only place in the entire campus where I felt most at home. Rather than saying that school was my second home at that time (as is the norm for most school-going kids), RG library was my second home. I won't go into the details on why this was so. Anyone who knows me well enough would know what I mean. And that was why I depended so much on my primary school gang. But as much as (I believe that) they want to be by my side, they aren't there all the time. And admittedly, as we progress from sec 1 to sec 4, our commitments grew exponentially, and thus while the support was there, it was only barely enough.
Maybe the ostracism during the two years of K2 was a blessing in disguise. (YES. I repeated K2. Long story. But I did NOT retain.) It made me treasure friends more. And then the years in RG was yet another blessing. Because it helped me find a greater balance between friends and family. I've been blessed with great friends and family (even as there were/are problems, but they are still great family. there are far worse ones out there.)
Random but perhaps loosely linked(?), I was wondering during the long mrt ride home about the friends who are such a big part of my life now. Someone once told me sometime ago (I forgot who) that the fact that many of my friends in RJ now are guys may give others a bad impression. That kinda thing...you know...erm...forget it, either you get it or you don't, I'm not gonna say it. Well, it suddenly came to me while I was taking a break from reading "Good Omens" on the MRT (totally random once again) that maybe the reason for that is that most of the time, the guys are better at having fun. Really. Even back in primary school, where my clique was "co-ed", all the fun things are initiated by guys. Guys are always the funny ones. (Have you ever encountered a female class clown? No? See? Proves my point.) I'm attracted to fun people, because it rids me of the responsibility of coming up with programmes, which tend to fail and then the fault is on me when the day isn't fun. But somehow, the next time round people look to me again to take charge of the programme. This thing about me coming up with programmes started sometime in Sec 3, and I was getting sick of it. So maybe that's why I like hanging out with guys. They represent easy fun. Just a (long) random thought.
And now that I thought about what I have just typed, I realise that it lacks coherence, has little chronological order and is probably very confusing to read. The thoughts relating to "I am blessed" occurred after the train ride on my walk home from the mrt by the way. This is seriously some (long) random ramblings that I doubt anyone would bother to read, but I just felt the need to type it down anyway.
I really really feel like dedicating to the "endearing people" mentioned but then that would have serious political implications. Maybe I'll do that after A levels. Maybe after grad night. haha. Like make a list or something. XP
[EDIT: Few seconds after posting] Oops, I realise this is a bit the very very very long after viewing my blog. LOL.Labels: friends, life, musing, thoughts, weekend
Monday, April 07, 2008
I crave for ice cream...and there's gonna be turkish icecream in school on wednesday! hurray! X)
I'm craving for a lot of things now. Like the following.
http://elementalrhapsody.wordpress.com/2008/03/05/e040-sweet-secrets/Birthday's coming *hint hint* lol.
Thing is, I've been eyeing it since last month, and yet I'm constantly broke. Doesn't help that I had to take taxi twice this month to school, and I still owe CQ a shoebag for his birthday. HAIZ. lol. (I want to buy the shoebag! I just don't have time to go penisula plaza now. soon...i promise!)
LOL. Funny how I crave for a earring each time my birthday nears. I still can't find the pink metallic hoops from last year though. Sad. I knew I should have bought those last year Feb.
Anyway, the earrings in the photo above are sold on Tammy Ying's blog shop. Do you know that she has a shop? So cool!!! Tammy Ying. Yup the one running for council. So sad I don't know her that well. The once that I talked to her was when I rushed back into the LT for the lunch box which I left under her seat. Yup. And then I found her familiar. I still don't know why I found her familiar though. hmmm.
Ahhhh...back to the topic on cravings! I'm craving a lot these days..like dresses and earrings and stuff..I wanna shop! AHHHHH. Ok. I seriously need to learn to save. So that I can shop. One day. Shall not spam the post with photos coz I seriously don't have time to upload them slowly. In the middle of a CSE article actually lol. Yay! back to work! or maybe I should go sleep, lest I'll be late tomorrow again and spend somemore money on taxi. yesh. sleep.
Labels: rant, shopping
Friday, April 04, 2008
Decided to take a break from all the rushing today and read a couple of blogs...and got inspired to take tests. This was from mervyn's blog...
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspxGet to know yourself betterYour view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
and the following from
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test80.aspxWhat's your personality love style?Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.
and some more quizzes...
Ok. that's it. shouldn't waste too much time on this. lol.
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