Sunday, January 18, 2009
WCP is seriously nice. Can't believe it took me so long to go there for the first time. It can actually tie with ECP as my favorite place in singapore, if not win it. While ECP still wins hands down in terms of beachy things....but WCP gives a more intimate feeling. Like it's meant for people you are comfortable with. And I think it's a good place to people watch. Kids are really really cute. And a lot of dogs. The sight of this mum trying to help her toddler walk the puppy really melted my heart. I found myself thinking if only I could take a photo of that (since I was talking about taking up photography with yezi earlier on..can you imagine a photo of that in my portfolio?).
And West Coast people are seriously the friendliest people in Singapore I think. While finding my way there, I asked for directions a couple of times and each time the people's vibes are really good and they have the best smiles in singapore. In the park, people keep smiling at me, especially the dog owners and the mums..maybe coz i kept perving at their dogs and their kids. HAHA.
I think one day...If I do take up photography..I'll do a project on the smiles of West Coast. haha.
Scenery in West Coast...personally I like it better than East Coast in a way. True, it's cluttered. but the lights at night are nice. And it feels so majestic, the structures..the vessels are really mesmerising. And unlike in East Coast, everything is so much closer to you in West Coast. Once again, the intimate feel.
I think...I might do some stuff with West Coast in the near future...portfolio or not. haha.
Other events in the day included going to roger's house...which was quite uneventful coz all i did was eat lunch and watch roger try to beat jared on the gooey game. Roger's dad is interesting to talk to though haha. I like talking to him. Afternoon was BCA career fair with yezi...mark and roger went along...and we met natalie there too. Listening to them talking about portfolio makes me seriously stressed lah. haha. still have time. yes.
And I learnt how to identify Canis Major at WCP today! hurray! i really wanna see Taurus in full at least once though. >.< and i think i really like sirus a lot. so bright. =D
Labels: life, weekend
Monday, December 01, 2008
Yay! Now that life seems to slow down a bit, I'm actually starting to have fun. Prom is 2-3 days away, and much of my stuff is pretty settled. A bit scary though, since I've never really done something like this before. Graduation night in Sec 4 was different, since we'll see everyone again in JC anyway. But this time round I find myself putting effort. My gosh...what if I turn out clashy. Like seriously, my fashion sense has always been regarded as on the weird side afterall. LOL.
But anyway, things are starting to be fun! I love December! First it's graduation night, then there's SATs, which is not so fun, but heck. Then JAP CLUB CHALET!! Whee~ and finally...HONGKONG TRIP. ok, i used caps for jap club chalet, but let's like bold hongkong trip then.
HONGKONG TRIP!!!!! there. lol. But yea, December shall be fun =)))
Today was fun too. Went to Paul's house coz I had to "chaperon" shuyi. But ended up staying till late haha! Free Mouse shall own man and win the first! LOL. IMBA storyline, with IMBA music. XD
Free MOUSEE!!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~~~~
Okay, but fun stuff aside...I should learn to rest more. I can actually feel my body under strain le. Sigh. I'm never good with balance. Plus I really should put more time into studying for SATs. And also, Neo is going to be back between 3rd and 9th Dec to do referrals and testimonials. So I really should finish my uni apps by then. >.< Sigh.
But Post-As are good. Even if Paul makes sense. Post-As feel a bit empty at times. But...Life is still good. for other reasons too, if you know what I mean. ^^
Reminder to self: Must try to ask Dad for C905 before prom. Or else where am I going to get the camera man. >.<
Labels: life, weekend
Monday, November 24, 2008
Ok, fine. This is really late since my A levels ended on Thursday. China Studies essay. It wasn't too bad...But I'm not that confident either. Ahhhh...No matter! It's over! Now to wait for the results...
But now I've got to worry about grad night! I need to borrow money for prom, because my mum's paying for the hk trip already, and I don't want her to feel like she's paying so much in one go. Even if it's a loan. Gonna borrow from shuyi...but...she's like paying so much for her own stuff also..>.<
But anyway, paid deposit on a dress today! YAY! From Artiris, my favorite shop! XDDD HAPPY. It's yellow and white! LOL. I hate wearing black at night lah..haha.
Exams are over for just 3 days..while right after the exam i felt a sense of emptiness along with the happiness...the 3 days were not empty! =P
The first (A levels free) day I spent it shopping with shuyi. Went to some Perth education fair with her, and then we shopped and she found her dream dress. After she went home, I met Kangwei and Kinwai at Far East and proceeded to help them shop for their friend's present. So kinwai got this really nice belt...which i'd actually get for myself one day i think..haha..
The 2nd day went to AFA, which was actually a total disappointment. Went back home to grab stuff to pass to JJ, back to orchard with Shan and Sammie to shop! haha. Damn, was supposed to shop for prom, but ended up spending most of the time in Borders and later at Wisma. Sammie and Shan got wallets from Forever 21 and I got a pair of flat pumps (cheap) at CottonOn. Really cheap, coz they hurt, but should be okay after they're worn in lah LOL.
3rd day (today!) is the slackest day of the three bah. Chenzhen called to get me to go AFA which i wanted to boycott. Ended up, fine, I shall go. But when I go town, he went home. Sigh. Oh well, so I went shopping alone. Yup. And got the lovely lovely lovely dress! YAY. =DD
RANDOM. WE ARE FLYING CATHAY PACIFIC! YAY! CALVIN GOING TO BOOK SOON! HEE!~
Ok, back to my attempt at the blog entry. Damn, haven't blogged properly for nearly a year...not very sure how I used to blog anymore. Sigh. Oh well.
I need blogging practice. haha. must reclaim my blogging queen title! yesh! =P
(oh, and i still haven't started on my anime marathon yet. sigh.)
Labels: holidays, weekend
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Very Important Announcement
I BOUGHT A DRESS.
More importantly, my parents paid for the dress, and thus it is not from my own pocket. and i like the dress.
The feeling you get from getting a new dress ish
GOOD.
Other highlights of the day include eating at a japanese restaurant and the opportunity to dress my bro up.
Father's Day celebrations over at Malaysia sums the day up. It's good to live in Woodlands.
P.S. I love my new dress! <33333
P.P.S. I like sashimi very very much too! <3333
P.P.P.S. Actually the miso wasn't bad too. The sushi were quite good too (though I've tasted better ones.
P.P.P.P.S. Once again, I like my new dress! <33333
Labels: life, weekend
Saturday, April 12, 2008
On Friday I was pissed with Econs lecture, of which I shall not repeat the details of what happened again, especially not online. But I was pissed. Not just pissed, but mega pissed. And I get super affected when I'm mega pissed. Especially when my mood equilibrium has been off balance for a long time since Wednesday already. The Econs lecture incident just tipped me off and I felt like I couldn't handle it without doing something about it. Too much negative energy was accumulating within me and I needed to expel them.
And so, I forfeited the whole of today, after the ORA walk-a-jogathon, and spent time hanging around people who knows how to have fun.
Roger is starting to form the impression as "The-One-With-Formidable-Board-Games". Playing flipping games are fun. Going to PI for the first time ever is nice. Having a friend like Raph who (replacing me) had to go through the experience of being bored in the middle of a thunderstorm for 6 hours is like possessing worldly treasures if not more. Knowing that Aaron Tan is a semi-otaku and plays parapara is refreshing. Hearing "Yesterday" once more after a break of two years, and actually going through the moves on parapara is simply the best ending to the day one (or rather, I) can ever wish for. (Oh. and I still owe raph a lunch.)After a day like this, even a mood of negative hundred percent would be raised to hundred percent, if not two hundred. (It was two hundred but dropped rapidly back to normal on the way to the mrt stations, and the mrt ride accelerated it even more.)
If this is a livejournal, and I am required to fill that little space below that says mood, the little icon that fits what I'm feeling now most would probably be "blessed".
I feel really blessed, because of the great friends I have now. Seriously. Even if this sounds cliche/mushy, but there are certain individuals (definitely not restricted to the ones i hung out with today) who are really endearing to me after the "going-to-be" two years in rjc. ok, thing is....I feel loved. Not that my parents or my primary school clique doesn't love me or anything like that..But.
I'm really glad to have been part of RG. I love RG. I'm proud of RG. But my experience in RG just isn't as great as most girls. The library was the only place in the entire campus where I felt most at home. Rather than saying that school was my second home at that time (as is the norm for most school-going kids), RG library was my second home. I won't go into the details on why this was so. Anyone who knows me well enough would know what I mean. And that was why I depended so much on my primary school gang. But as much as (I believe that) they want to be by my side, they aren't there all the time. And admittedly, as we progress from sec 1 to sec 4, our commitments grew exponentially, and thus while the support was there, it was only barely enough.
Maybe the ostracism during the two years of K2 was a blessing in disguise. (YES. I repeated K2. Long story. But I did NOT retain.) It made me treasure friends more. And then the years in RG was yet another blessing. Because it helped me find a greater balance between friends and family. I've been blessed with great friends and family (even as there were/are problems, but they are still great family. there are far worse ones out there.)
Random but perhaps loosely linked(?), I was wondering during the long mrt ride home about the friends who are such a big part of my life now. Someone once told me sometime ago (I forgot who) that the fact that many of my friends in RJ now are guys may give others a bad impression. That kinda thing...you know...erm...forget it, either you get it or you don't, I'm not gonna say it. Well, it suddenly came to me while I was taking a break from reading "Good Omens" on the MRT (totally random once again) that maybe the reason for that is that most of the time, the guys are better at having fun. Really. Even back in primary school, where my clique was "co-ed", all the fun things are initiated by guys. Guys are always the funny ones. (Have you ever encountered a female class clown? No? See? Proves my point.) I'm attracted to fun people, because it rids me of the responsibility of coming up with programmes, which tend to fail and then the fault is on me when the day isn't fun. But somehow, the next time round people look to me again to take charge of the programme. This thing about me coming up with programmes started sometime in Sec 3, and I was getting sick of it. So maybe that's why I like hanging out with guys. They represent easy fun. Just a (long) random thought.
And now that I thought about what I have just typed, I realise that it lacks coherence, has little chronological order and is probably very confusing to read. The thoughts relating to "I am blessed" occurred after the train ride on my walk home from the mrt by the way. This is seriously some (long) random ramblings that I doubt anyone would bother to read, but I just felt the need to type it down anyway.
I really really feel like dedicating to the "endearing people" mentioned but then that would have serious political implications. Maybe I'll do that after A levels. Maybe after grad night. haha. Like make a list or something. XP
[EDIT: Few seconds after posting] Oops, I realise this is a bit the very very very long after viewing my blog. LOL.Labels: friends, life, musing, thoughts, weekend
Saturday, October 20, 2007
what two bored people do...is they deliberately let the scores even out when playing minesweeper flags, and then take a screenshot of it. the more random and boliao person now posts the screenshot on her blog.
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[EDIT: few seconds after posting. coz i don't feel like creating another post.]
Realised I haven't been blogging much recently. So ironic. The urge to blog again and again was always there during promos period, and now, when I have more time to blog, I don't.
Anyway, on Thursday I wanted to stalk Calvin home (to find out where he lives) so I followed abtzy, seng teck (did i spell his name wrongly?) and calvin to changi beach to catch the first glimpse of Airbus 380. Although I'm not a fan of aircrafts...the feeling of the planes flying over your head at such a close distance and the sea crashing onto the shore in front of you is...magical. haha. I think I'll go back someday on my own.
For the record, I decided not to stalk calvin last minute. Had too much on my mind that night to go on a wild goose chase. (alright, i was half-emoing at the beach.) Ended up taking abtzy's car to city hall mrt (and dinner at abtzy's house in the middle!).
Friday was spent editing (unsuccessfully) the pw video we have. Morning was wasted on trying to figure out what was wrong with the camera. But matthew saved the day by taking a break from studying and came up to solve my problem. simply by turning on the power. "-_- sigh. when cq reads this, he's going to go "sotong". lol.
Afternoon wasn't good either. I can't manage to squeeze everything within one minute. halfway through the video and it already hit near 2 mins. It's mission impossible. Weizhong made it sound like he can do it...hmm...i'll see how he does it on monday. If he manages to do it, then I'll get to learn something new.
I just realised this is something which has been on my mind quite often recently. To get better in filming. To learn from the pros, like calvin and weizhong (although i like the idea of suaning weizhong on my blog. whatever).
anyway, something quite funny happened in the lab. roger came over to use his ibook and play stepmania.....attempting to pon chess. unsuccessfully. the chess training secretary came to get him TWICE. LOL. while shuyi successfully ponned...in some classroom. HAHA.
friday night: mep concert. anything royce writes is good lah. lol. PERSIAN PRUNES!!! X) (i recorded the entire concert on tape for them~ =P)
and caiqiang stayed for the concert!!! hurray! so i didn't go home alone. lol.
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sister wants to go swim. she don't want to go alone. i have to go and pei her. and play psp by the pool side. DIAO. "-_-
Labels: random, school, weekend
Sunday, August 26, 2007
Sundays are usually nice and calm. I don't know.
I really ought not to be so affected. Would I be as affected if circumstances changed?
here i am worrying..but it doesn't make a difference to him. for to him, i'm insignificant. but i'm contented. to be there for him is enough.---------------------
P.S. I'm closing the music quiz. Several of the songs are quite alternative anyway, so i don't think anyone will guess them correctly lah. LOL. so i'm gonna start blogging again! lol.
Labels: W, weekend
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Befrienders meeting today! =D But I was late. Oops. Must be the fireworks last night really tire me out le. haha.
But befrienders meeting was real fun! Although we arrived late, the meeting hasn't started yet, so we didn't miss anything! Briefing and stuff wasn't anything to talk about. But the befrienders dance was really really fun! Key signature moves like the "girl whee" move..and the turns! my gosh, the turns are difficult. Aiyo...why use so many different turns. But was very very very fun! haha. Shall practice. Can you imagine, do math tutorial...do until sian then stand up and start dancing. LOL.
OH, then we are supposed to memorise the school trivia! LOL. My memory sucks. But oh wells...haha.
And befrienders Tshirt design is nice!!!! though we haven recieve it yet, coz it's not printed yet. LOL.
After befrienders meeting, was grassroots meeting! quite productive, although very few people turned up. Only Xianjie, ZhanMing, Zei, Shuyi, Me, Anna and Giraffe. But it feels like grassroots is gonna be fun! We shall do the newsletter (only) before promos. YAY! good...that most of the stuff we are leaving till after promos coz then we can mug. lol. I hope the BB-MT christmas party will materialise! coz the idea is so cool! and coz i'm like surrounded by MT friends (as pointed out by stacy today). LOL. Seriously..come to think of it, I've been spending a lot of time with MT people for the past two days! LOL. Today's lunch was spent with Eugene, JunHan, Stacy and Woonie. Which makes.....4 MT people and ONE BB person - Me. lol.
Speaking of which...BB people! (if any reads my blog. i know cq reads..) Go down and help house D with the making of IHC thank you notes! haha. they'll be telling us about when and where they'll be making them soon. X)
AND JOIN GRASSROOTS!!!!!!!
Okie. I shall go back to math. actually, math is starting to look like it has more hope than physics. HAHA.
Labels: school, weekend
11:05 PM
Today (friday) was a really tiring day. Mainly coz I didn't sleep well, not after listening over and over to an interview recording and doing the transcript for PW. Was practically collapsing in school already. Nevertheless, being the irrational kinda girl I am, I decided to go for Fireworks Festival. Didn't regret it too, coz it was soooooo nice! X)
Asked like everyone but nobody wanted to go. So, ended up crashing woonie and his friends..erm..mark, roger, aaron..can't remember the rest. oops. anyway, they are nice people. yay! made new friends! yay! *gosh, i sound like CQ here* weizhong met us at j8 and joined us! lol. i kinda crashed into a ri guys gathering like that..=S. haha. but it was alright lah..heard a lot of interesting stories that happened in ri.
At the fireworks right, there was this photographer in front of me. But he says that the guy next to him keep pushing him, which would affect his shots, so he asked if i wanna take his place (since i'm smaller also..lol). So i said yes..and we started talking a bit. And then he asked if i can help him take video! coz he wanna take photos. haha. He's gonna send the video to me! =))
The fireworks were soooooo nice!!! There was even heart-shaped fireworks! ahhhhh....i wanna go again next year!
I shall coup photos from everyone and post it soon. hee. X)
speaking of photos...wanted to cam whore, but in the end everyone was too sian to cam whore le. such a pity..i thought it'd be fun to see guys cam whore. HAHA.
during supper afterwards (or rather just weizhong eating dinner and the rest had a drink), i was sending the horoscope picture to mark..when i see cq's phone connected on my bluetooth screen! dark luster. gosh...sooo creepy. called cq and he says he's at home. and that he changed his phone name some time ago...hmmm....is it possible for it to be sooo coincidental? lol.
had so much fun today...but ahhh...i really should sleep le. tomorrow still got befrienders meeting..and then grassroots...gasp.
have some stuff that i really need to blog into livejournal for the past two weeks or so..but somehow there's no time. maybe i shall wake up early to blog tmr. that will be like 3 or 4 entries in livejournal in one go. haha.Labels: weekend
Sunday, August 12, 2007
I skipped service today to
sleep 18 hours in a row. Gosh. But the headache's almost gone now. And the cramps are not half as bad. Body still aches like hell though..but probably from over sleeping than anything else. Mum's like convinced that my "poor health" is due to my late night habits. Right. Like I haven't always been like this for the past few years, and now, all of a sudden my body can't take it anymore? Diao. And feeling unwell every now and then hardly count as being in "poor health".
Wynne says that Mr Tan got a pair of really nice slippers that both she and Esther can't wear coz it's size 5! haha. So I'm like the cinderella. XP In Wynne's words, God blessed me with the pair of slippers. X)
And BBO's in built tutorials are really really really good. woah. not too dry either. XP
and I'm in love with wikipedia's entry on internet slangs. X)
Oh, and I'm guilty for not revising everything that I told myself I would this holiday. And I'm no where close to finishing the five books either. Oh well, I can try finish them within next week, or renew them. Haha. Should try make it a habit to read regularly, instead of reading all in one go and burn myself out. That's how I get sick half the time anyway. Lol.
Check out Neopets. I haven't been there for so long..but their new layout's rather cool. lol. maybe i'll be childish and go play a bit of neopets after promos. XPLabels: weekend
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Today was quite fun! More fun than a usual saturday anyway. XP
Went to woonie's hse with cq to study. Original plan was to come my house..but then CQ complained that my family is so big and he won't feel comfortable with so many people around. So...Woonie's hse it was. I suppose simply studying would have been really boring. But it was quite fun coz we kinda got distracted. During/After lunch (sushi..which would have been really nice if not for the spicy
sardine [edit:coz cq says it was tuna =S] tuna in it), we pored over the RI yearbook and I tried to look out for everyone that I know. LOL. It's amazing what a guy's hairstyle can do to his looks. haha...I almost didn't recognise a few! *and my gosh...everyone looked so young. the photos were taken last year, and this year everyone looked so much older??* and i took a look at woonie's sec 1 and 2 class photos.......weizhong looked so cute! lol.
after that we went back to studying (after a slight detour by bbo...and surfing through zijian's blog archives which were ultra funny)...but by then it was already 3pm. And honestly speaking, we weren't really whole heartedly studying. woonie started channel surfing with his radio..and it was damn funny. can you imagine studying with say....indian music in the background? haha. hmm...i miss listening to radio. sometimes i'd listen to late night shows on YES 933..like the 11.30pm shows..forgot the name, haha. then i would try to call in to dedicate songs. but now, come to think of it, even if i managed to get through, i wouldn't have anyone to dedicate the song to since no one listens to radio that late. haha.
man, we should do this kinda thing more often. lol. except get someone pro in math and physics to study with us too. lol.
next saturday there's befrienders meeting! and after that, BB grassroots meeting! and after that, maybe i'm going over to shuyi's hse to study! but i really really don't think i'd study if i start so late...but shuyi's like trying to bribe me with a pool game...lol. oh wells, I'll see how first lah. maybe i'll try hard to get into the mood of studying XP
shuyi finally got a number with free incoming! hurray!
ahhh...the back of my throat and my head are hurting me. =( i have a bad feeling that i'm getting sick. X(
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there are some stuff that didn't escape me..wasn't lost on me. just that i thought that it would be better to act dumb, at least at this point of time. especially in the current situation. plus, perhaps there's nothing to it too...that it is just a figment of my imagination. it's probably just a figment of my imagination.if only certain other parts of my imagination is actually true...life would be so good then.Labels: weekend
Sunday, August 05, 2007
Often, I think my mother would feel much better and have a happier life without a daughter like me. I tried so hard, put in extra effort twice tonight to be a good, "desirable" daughter tonight. But still, I've been proven unsatisfactory.
Well, I was really sad for a moment just now. But now I've managed to control my emotions and I'm alright. So don't worry. I'm still going to stick by my plan to be bright and cheery. I'm going to do it, until bright and cheery is internalised as the main part of me. =))
I feel happy anyway! For I have been given the courage to approach a couple of people I wouldn't dare to approach about 100k. I approached A, the first that came to my mind (and I don't think I would be able to approach anyone else before approaching A). And tomorrow, I'm going to talk to B. Yes. ok lah, B is CQ. hahahaha. Why am I being so mysterious with names? XP
Boo..Woonie cannot crash us for Kbox le. Coz he has math tutorial till 3.15pm. haha. If we hadn't change our math to the geog slot, we would have math till that time too. =P I realise the S05 classes have quite similar timetables leh! =))
Labels: life, weekend
Saturday, August 04, 2007
Well, I'm still happy. I wake up every morning (or afternoon in today's case) feeling fresh (or not fresh, if i'm too tired), and most importantly happy, contented and looking forward to the day. I've gotten out of the vicious cycle completely i think, and am not going back into it anytime sooner. Yet, I'm still sinking deeper and deeper still. This must be the first time that no matter how deep I sink, I don't feel the pain anymore. I feel free..
Well, today's good. Most probably gonna go study with CQ and possibly daniel (if he finally picks up his phone today. he always say to call him out for studying, but end up sleeping the entire day. diao.) And maybe maybe watch the simpsons movie..but i'm broke though.
P.S. shan! i'm getting a prezzie for u! but u might have to wait till sept coz i kinda overspent this month again? XS
oh, and a game which is super fun (introduced by cq late last nite when boredom was rampant.)
http://www.albartus.com/motas/Labels: life, weekend
Sunday, July 29, 2007
I am doing pw stuff now. Boo. =(
And I missed service today. Boo =(
And my laptop is still not fixed. Boo =(
But later seniors are presenting at WRL. Yay! =))
And watching movie tomorrow! Yay! =))
And I love cousin’s presence at home! Yay! =))
And Hamasaki rocks like hell! Yay! =))
been so long since I last listened to Jpop lah..haha.
Which brings me to my next point. Dad fixed the speakers of this com. Which makes this com a little less sucky. Yay!!! =))
Labels: random, weekend
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Today, I got a sign! But no one shall ever know what it is, because it shall always be my own little secret…Anyway, it made me really really happy. Totally made my day! =)
Church was really great today. But I still haven’t got pass my barrier of talking about church, so I shan’t. =(
Finally, I feel like my life is not going to waste. And I’m going to help a lot and a lot of people!!!!
(NOte ot self: Read private blog if you don't know what you are talking abt in the future! XP)
Busy week ahead, yet I’m not feeling half as distressed as last term. Hmm..haha. Let’s have that occasional run-down…
Tomorrow:
- PW interview with Red Cross
- Othello full run
Tuesday:
- Film soc meeting?
- Physics remedial
- Befrienders Meeting (Which is why I’m gonna skip British Council this coming week)
- Othello full run (maybe, since I’m skipping british council, then maybe I’ll just pop by lah)
Wednesday:
- CO prac
- Othello full dress rehearsals (filming)
Thursday:
- BB Grassroots Meeting (tentative)
- Othello (Filming)
Friday:
- Math Remedial
- Othello (Filming)
Saturday
- Othello (Filming)
Despite the run-down, I’m sure I’ve missed out something. I almost missed out the physics remedial just now. And at this moment...Weizhong will say…Get an organizer! I think I heard that so often that nowadays, when ever I’m trying to get organized and start giving myself a run-down of the week…I hear his voice. My gosh. His voice is haunting me. LOL.
Sigh. Don’t remind me how much I hate sciences.
But I realize, upon thinking quite a bit on the matter recently, that liking the subject really will help. I mean, for Econs, I’m sure I could have done better. I spent like ONE DAY revising and I can pass it? Yet I spent 2 weeks revising math and physics, and I still fail. Hmm…that says something. Maybe I should have focused on Econs and get one good grade, since I was gonna fail physics and math anyway. Sigh. Anyway, I shall try to learn to like math and physics, I guess.
Lots and lots of questions going round in my head right now. I hope I can get them sorted out by end of the coming week. XP
I shall chill more, and not get so tense up.
I SHALL MAKE TIME TO GO OUT WITH SAMMIE! Or at least study with Sammie..sorry sam, for not studying with u today =(
Labels: rant, weekend
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Today's an important day. I am happy. I went for FCBC's youth service. At first it was overwhelming, after afterwards it was okay. I felt like I am accepted once again. I felt like everything will be alright. Life doesn't seem so screwed anymore and problems were no longer magnified. It wasn't by chance I went today, especially since the sermon was especially relevant to me and my situation. I'm thankful.
Obviously, I didn't open up in just one day. It takes time I know. But I felt that today was a step. It may still be quite a while before I can freely discuss about issues on this, without any ambiguities, but right now, I'm still searching. What I do know though, is that I'm on the right track. And I never want to go back the way I came from again. No matter what happens.
Yesh. OK. now my tummy is desperately begging for food. =S
maybe I'll do some of those quizzes i've been wanting to do for ages later on in the night.
no...before that i shall clean Joanne's cage. and help my sis clean Tuna's cage too. =X
Labels: life, weekend
Saturday, July 14, 2007
I had a terrible arguement this morning with mum. Over the same old issues. It's getting so old that I don't even wanna talk about it anymore. But it reminded me just how different I am from the rest of the family. Joining the raffles family is definitely a good thing, but it kinda alienated me somewhat. True that I didn’t really fit in rg, but it’s undeniable that rg provided me with so many opportunities and opened my eyes with regards to various issues which I would not have encountered otherwise. It gave me exposure to people from different walks in life. So naturally my personality and views are shaped somewhat by my experience in rg and rj. And that’s where the differences step in I guess. Or maybe I just had it innate in me, just that the raffles experience sparked it off. Anyhow, raffles played a part. I just have to learn how to cope with my being different in the family. Family is the basic unit after all. The immediate emptiness I felt right after drama fest made me renew my efforts and gave my family another chance. Maybe it wouldn’t have felt as terrible if this was my first attempt and not the second.
The argument made me late for PW survey at changi airport, and as a result, I wasn’t very productive. My moods were ruined in the first place anyway. Speaking to weiren and weizhong about God gave me new insights. I haven’t sort out all my thoughts like I thought I have. This is getting messier and messier. I gotta do something about it soon. Like tomorrow.
Yea, I’m going back to church tomorrow. Shan, don’t tag anything unpleasant. I have Christian friends reading my blog. Need to sort out everything within me soon, and I hope going back to church will help me. My life has lacked direction for way too long already..
I love reading blogs, but hate it at the same time. You always manage to come upon some troubled entries every now and then. It’s bad enough that people are troubled (I feel bad enough)…but life won’t be perfect. I’ve accepted that. The terrible part comes when the person in question is my friend, or someone who I want to be good friends/closer friends with. Especially when it’s someone I wanna be good friends/closer friends with. Coz then I wouldn’t be able to help, not if the person refuses to allow me to help. And when that happens, I feel terribly useless. All I can do then is to pray for them and hope someone will be able to help them.
Not being a close friend, or even a good friend, I can’t probe too much. That’s frustrating. I hope he’s alright. I do have the tendency to read too much into things and dramatize stuff in my mind after all. If only he’d come to me…
[EDIT] why do troubled posts come in waves? like there is some invisible negative synergy going around affecting my circle of friends from time to time..If only everyone I know who’s troubled or unhappy would come to me.
If my life were a sin graph, I would describe my current position as the minimum point. BUT I keep trying to inverse it. That’s the difference this time round. It’s like trying to rotate the graph by 180 degrees about the x-axis, but right now it’s at, say, 80 degrees. There’s 50/50 chance for it to move either way, and as hard as I’m pushing it, it’s still not bulging towards the positive and threatening to drop down to the pits. As I said, I use weird analogies, but how else to I express what I wanna say? I’m never good with expressing my thoughts.
Hopefully, I won’t sink this time round again.
Labels: life, thoughts, weekend
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Let's see...I still don't have my beloved lappy back and am still working on this sub-standard ancient machine which threatens to hang every now and then.
Ended up not going for the filming because I really had no time to finish everything I wanna do. Spent the morning on doing PW research and stuff. And the entire afternoon on cse. which meant I missed class outing too. Not entirely though, since I went over to join them at Sakae Sushi at round 7.30pm. Tan Chen treated everyone to movies!!! argh...I should have gone. haha. Oh nvm, he bought bicardi for me anyway. X) asked him at 7/11 why is he treating everything that day and he says that they have the tradition of treating friends on your birthday. "You spend the time and I spend the money." Hmm...I always thought that the birthday boy/girl is the one who should get treated...
Anyway, luckily I went for class outing, coz I completely forgot about GP assignment!! argh. which was what I was doing right now until I decided to come and blog first. Stupid GP. I think even if I put in an entire fire engine truck full of efforts now, I might still fail my GP in promos. Okay, or maybe get an E. Which was what I got for CTs. Whatever grade I get, I'll be last in class.Which reminded me. I've accidentally skipped two british council gp lessons in a row. First was during the CT week and the second during last tuesday. oops. completely forgot about it. sigh.
and i think 4.8% is too weak for any effect to take place. i could hardly feel anything. just as well, i thought since it's a school night i shouldn't take anything too heavy..but this is...erm...It's like wasting money. sigh. i wanted to get high lah..
My sis is getting Four Emus this yr end! X) great! I heard four emus is great.
oh, and some time today, in the middle of doing pw, I surfed the net for around half an hour or so. And I finally went round to checking out Technorati which I keep hearing from others whenever I talk about blogs. Quite cool..found a few blogs which I've been trying to find for ages! LOL. yay.
ok, now i really should get back to my gp. sigh. dreaded gp. dreaded coming week too, for i'm sure to fail my remaining two subjects too. really gotta buck up for promos. sigh.
i want my lappy back.
Labels: weekend
11:41 PM
It's nearly 1am now and I only just got back from CHMA. It stands for Catholic High Music Awards. Why do I go for CHMA? 1) My best friend was from st nic, so i happened to go chma last yr with her. both of us agreed that it was good and decided we shall go again this year. 2) Fengheng's band is playing. As guest/alumni performer.
Yep, but we all agreed that the standards dropped. HAIZ. oh well..But Mark Tan is still the best host ever. HAHA. Totally love him. I think weddings hosted by him will be incredibly interesting. Ok, that was a random point.
Plus this year's chma has a bit of a overly-chinese feel to it? erm...i like chinese-ness (note i'm in co, was in copera, and i'm in chinese speaking family. all my relatives are in china) but it just didn't feel very....cat high. haha.
Okay, actually I'm very enthu about CHMA one...but just quarrelled with my mum and it totally ruined my spirits. So shan't talk more. maybe i'll talk abt it more tmr, if i still had the mood and feeling better.
I'm hungry.
Well, by tomorrow night, I must finish my part of the pw stuff...and tomorrow 1pm i have filming to do, and after 3pm there's class outing. so yea..n i need to read my cse. desperatly. so yea, studying + doing pw tonight and hopefully for tmr morning too. i shall slp at say...2.30am? 3am?
And I'm a taurus. Which means I am stubborn. I refuse to give up my social life, my ccas and all the important parts of my life. no matter how much pressure everyone gives me. including my mum. with all due respect, I listen to her opinions..but i'm still gonna live my own life. so what i'm different from the family...so what that i'm nocturnal...?
and i'm definitely gonna go university, or i'll not return home or something.
i suppose everyone thinks i'm a super bad girl now.
Labels: life, rant, weekend
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Went to Malaysia for a new haircut today! YAY! X)
Lots of weird random things make me happy. Buying something, a new dress, a new pair of shorts, NEW SHOES!!! that makes me happy. Wearing nice socks makes me happy. and er..nice bra. but nevermind about that. AND GOING KBOX! that makes me happy too! and bowling!! haha. and DDR makes me high! yesh!
Don't know whether it was a good trade-off today though. Coz 5 hours over at Malaysia meant that I lost a day of studying. Precious time to study Econs and Physics. Not to mention that I have not started on China Studies yet. oh well, i've given up hope on that one. haha. I'll like take the whole of tomorrow to read up on it i guess. And econs. I got to get decent grades for econs. Or i'll die. Seriously. I'll go kill myself, even if i don't die of disappointment if I don't get to take H3 econs.
In conclusion. A "haircut therapy" works just as great as a shopping therapy! XP
Labels: holidays, weekend
