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Wednesday, August 15, 2007

ever-sinking

I realised I'm starting to blog carelessly. Anymore of that and it'll become so private that I'll have to lock it or something. Password protect it.
But, that would mean I'll have to decide who can or cannot access my blog. And I'll become even more careless. How can I be so sure that I'm choosing the correct persons to confide in? Confiding everything to selected people is not an option apparently. The more one single person understands you, the greater the ability the person has to hurt you. Letting someone know too much is dangerous.

Something's wrong with me today. No longer just the trivial matters, but something...I don't know anymore. I don't understand it. I know the pieces that are affecting me, but I can no longer see the whole picture.

Shall try to become cheery again, but just give me another few days. I'll come through this.

It's the losing of hope...the impossibility..yet the optimistic illusions..I was deluding myself. Just like the last time. Nothing that good could ever happen to me. I am sinking.

Labels: life

1:36 PM

THE PRINCESS

name; melissa chan meiyi
age; 18
bdae; 210490
location; singapore

hates; hypocrites, betrayers and traitors
loves;

dr...(+)

more;

ad...(+)

~~adp~~ ~~rgs~~ ~~rjc~~

~~1/1~~ 2F 3M 4M 5P 6Q ~~106~~ ~~206~~ ~~310~~ ~~410~~ ~~08S05B~~

~~purple house~~ buckle ~~buckle-buckley~~

adp: ~~it club~~ ~~library~~ ~~eng drama~~ ~~chinese dance~~ ~~swimming~~

rg: ~~handbells~~ ~~library~~ rjc: ~~film society~~ ~~chinese orchestra~~ japanese cultural club (once in jcc always in jcc!)

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I'm a girl, who's normal most of the time, but weird otherwise. My nickname in primary school was blurqueen, which was upgraded to BBQ Bizzarely Blurqueen in Secondary 2 during Primary 6 class reunion. I have a huge variety of interests, so I end up being very poor in time management.

random;
Friends, my brother and sisters, and my computer.
I take birthdays very seriously.
I love roses.
I love the late night.
I love manga and anime.
I love my cats, (schro)dinger and newton.
I love concerts.

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