Monday, July 02, 2007
Okay, I was a bit hesitant to post this entry.
Coz that would mean pushing the lovable pictures of my dear Joanne (bunny) way down. SCROLL DOWN TO SEE JOANNE'S PICTURES.but this being a blog, i gotta blog. haha.
Well, woke up early today to help my sis collect her bag from the ebayer at marsling mrt. After that, I rushed to plaza singapura to meet suen and jiaxi for movie. i bought kfc, and we sneaked food into the movies at The Cathay. watched surf's up. kinda boring...but i guess it was okay. really don't get why they wanna do it in the news reporting format. diao. "-_-
After the movies, we went back to plaza sing to shop for a new wallet for suen. on the way back, i met chuntsen. haha. but suen and jiaxi was so far ahead that i couldn't stop to say hi properly....HI CHUNTSEN.
Which reminded me. I WAS A FASHION DISASTER. Was already in a rush in the morning, so i literally pulled anything out of my wardrobe and wore it. And everything clashed. urgh.
Worse still, I saw eddie. but luckily he didn't see me.
Even luckier, I didn't see anyone else I know afterwards. Phew.
Had to walk to Paradiz center to borrow 5 bucks from CQ (who was having class outing there) coz my card ran out of money and i had to top up. And Suen walked me all the way there. YAY! THX SUEN. haha. But didn't stay to crash his class outing in the end, since pple i know aren't there. like fei fei. boohoo.
OK. HERE'S THE BIG THING. AND WHY I DECIDED TO POST SOMETHING WHICH WILL PUSH JOANNE'S POST DOWN. When I was about to go through the gates at the mrt, I suddenly lost the desire to go on. So I just stood around the area, without going pass the gates. A bit similar to Weizhong's dreams the other time I just realised, haha. Except this time I was staying in the
unpaid area. Well, the thing is, it's such a weird sensation. After a while I tried to make myself want to go in, but I still couldn't. And it took quite a while for me to make myself go in. And as I was walking through the long tunnel connecting the north east line to the north south line, listening to music, all the while the feeling was still there. I felt disconnected. Above all. Like my span of vision suddenly increased tenfold without actually increasing what i could see. THEN IT STRUCK. Inspiration.
Well, I continued working on it on the mrt, until I got so tired and fell asleep. Not repeating the same old mistake I committed the last time round, I recorded all my brainstorming on my phone. And this was how it went...
"The life of buzzing may be full of happenings but missing. Missing that something called emptiness, which the lack of it is just as miserable as the excess of it."
:: Song - Only Hope by Mandy Moore -- I don't know why I included this on my phone while brainstorming. But it is the song I was listening to when the idea first struck. I suppose I want to be able to get the feel of the idea back if I lost it? like what happened the last time. ::
"Yet addiction to buzzing and happenings? How a buzzing lifestyle adds to the sense of fulfillment. The illusion that life means something. That having friends, being 'happening'....are seen as achievements/accomplishments?"
"It raises status quo."
"The cons to not being easily contented. Or rather, being too hard to get contented. Taking too much to get contented."
Okay, I know. All this sounds....it doesn't make sense. I'll try to make it make sense. Somehow. Just that today, I used up so much of my brain juice that I refuse to work on it anymore. I hope it doesn't develop into something way too complicated as it has the tendency to do so. Sigh. haha.
YAY I'M HAPPY! WOOT!
somehow I get the feeling this might be the best idea I've had just yet in fact. haha. if anyone can actually decipher my idea i mean. lol.
oh, i just realised that some people might not know what i was talking about. I'm talking about script. for sva. or now known as schools digital media awards (sdma). yea. but this may be a bit too complicated...might not be possible within such a short time. if it develops to that, then i'll just write the script anyway and keep it for future reference/uses! haha.
but then my scripts are always so yucky...sigh.
P.S. saw some really really nice quizzes on waihan's blog!! ahhhh...i wanna do! but then i don really feel like doing them now. (see? contradictory again.) i guess i shall do them nxt time bah.
Labels: cca, life
