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Sunday, April 15, 2007

bitter sweet seventeen

I'm really not myself today. I mean, it's true what jn said. Once you can pinpoint exactly what is upsetting you, you'll be able to manage better. I'm managing better. That doesn't make me less....uncomfortable? is that the word?

I go around like some mad woman, knowing exactly where and what I'm doing, but at the same time unsure. I'm just not into all the work today. My mind's not in.

I'm suffocating. No longer coz of home...or maybe just to a smaller extent due to home. rather, there are a lot of other stuff going on now. Like Fei Fei said, now we know why age 16 is called sweet 16, coz once you reach 17, it becomes bitter sweet. you love it, yet you hate it. problems just come after you non-stop. worse still, these problems are non-physical...maybe non-existent even.

and one problem always have to be followed by another of similar nature. uck.

i hate growing up. I seriously need to sort out my inner state.

Is it true that some feelings just cannot be controlled?
If not, explain what I'm feeling now and what I've done wrong..

Labels: thoughts

6:17 PM

THE PRINCESS

name; melissa chan meiyi
age; 18
bdae; 210490
location; singapore

hates; hypocrites, betrayers and traitors
loves;

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more;

ad...(+)

~~adp~~ ~~rgs~~ ~~rjc~~

~~1/1~~ 2F 3M 4M 5P 6Q ~~106~~ ~~206~~ ~~310~~ ~~410~~ ~~08S05B~~

~~purple house~~ buckle ~~buckle-buckley~~

adp: ~~it club~~ ~~library~~ ~~eng drama~~ ~~chinese dance~~ ~~swimming~~

rg: ~~handbells~~ ~~library~~ rjc: ~~film society~~ ~~chinese orchestra~~ japanese cultural club (once in jcc always in jcc!)

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I'm a girl, who's normal most of the time, but weird otherwise. My nickname in primary school was blurqueen, which was upgraded to BBQ Bizzarely Blurqueen in Secondary 2 during Primary 6 class reunion. I have a huge variety of interests, so I end up being very poor in time management.

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I take birthdays very seriously.
I love roses.
I love the late night.
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I love concerts.

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