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Sunday, April 15, 2007

bitter sweet seventeen


I'm really not myself today. I mean, it's true what jn said. Once you can pinpoint exactly what is upsetting you, you'll be able to manage better. I'm managing better. That doesn't make me less....uncomfortable? is that the word?

I go around like some mad woman, knowing exactly where and what I'm doing, but at the same time unsure. I'm just not into all the work today. My mind's not in.

I'm suffocating. No longer coz of home...or maybe just to a smaller extent due to home. rather, there are a lot of other stuff going on now. Like Fei Fei said, now we know why age 16 is called sweet 16, coz once you reach 17, it becomes bitter sweet. you love it, yet you hate it. problems just come after you non-stop. worse still, these problems are non-physical...maybe non-existent even.

and one problem always have to be followed by another of similar nature. uck.

i hate growing up. I seriously need to sort out my inner state.

Is it true that some feelings just cannot be controlled?
If not, explain what I'm feeling now and what I've done wrong..

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THE PRINCESS

name; melissa chan meiyi
age; 18
bdae; 210490
location; singapore

hates; hypocrites, betrayers and traitors
loves;
dr...(+)
drink :: ice lemon tea | chocolate milk | green tea | milo
colour :: orange | pink | green
anime :: bleach
manga :: ouran high school host club
books :: the day after forever by erin skiffington | the lovely bones by alice sebold
authors :: agatha christie | jane austen
music :: death cab for cutie | jay chou | muse


more;
ad...(+)

adp rgs rjc

1/1 2F 3M 4M 5P 6Q 106 206 310 410 08S05B

purple house buckle buckle-buckley

adp: it club library eng drama chinese dance swimming

rg: handbells library rjc: film society chinese orchestra japanese cultural club (once in jcc always in jcc!)

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I'm a girl, who's normal most of the time, but weird otherwise. My nickname in primary school was blurqueen, which was upgraded to BBQ Bizzarely Blurqueen in Secondary 2 during Primary 6 class reunion. I have a huge variety of interests, so I end up being very poor in time management.


random;
Friends, my brother and sisters, and my computer.
I take birthdays very seriously.
I love roses.
I love the late night.
I love manga and anime.
I love my cats, (schro)dinger and newton.
I love concerts.

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THE KINGDOM

My DeviantART
My Livejournal (more private entries than public though, and much abandoned as of now.)

My Prayer Log (private)
bleach portal
08S05B class blog!
rjc film society blog!
promediaus (sean's team)
sj tribe
youthnet online
youthnet admin

abtzy
caiqiang
candy
chaoyang
chuntsen
eugene
germ
gekmin
hanyu
ian
janice
jasmine yam
jawed
jawed's tumblr
jingxuan
jinjun
kah hou
kaiqi
kawing
lijie
liyi
lorraine
mandy
mel law
prila
qiongye
royce
sammie
sean
sengteck
shan
shuyi
sianying
stacy
suen
sky
waihan
wang
wangting
weihao
weizhong
woonie
xiu
yewei
yiding
yining
zijian
zijian(ex-blog)
zhuoyi

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DISCLAIMER: these are linked here so that there's no need for my minute brain to remember so many urls. lol



THE MEMORY

recent;
disjointed.
continued.
non-chronological series of events and happenings
I said hi to the cow...
studying late in the night.
I feel like human again.
No longer pissed! X)
I saw a rainbow today!
need
I just realised just how much I like Regina Spekto...


past;
April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 November 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 August 2011 September 2011

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