iBleach- Soul Generation of Music

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Random Thoughts (2)

A continuation with the random thoughts.

Random Thought Number 4

I like looking at kids because I find them carefree without a worry in the world, except for the occasional "Am I going to have ice cream tonight?". They're innocent and cute.

While this is what most people think anyway, but for the first time ever, I actually made a connection between my liking for kids and my own childhood experiences. The fact is, if at J2 telling Stacy about my childhood experiences can cause me to cry, I don't need much self-awareness to know that it really made a huge impact on me...aka "life-scarring" even if it sounds dramatic. And yesterday as I was sitting in Causeway Point eating, I realise that I like the kids mostly for their innocence, their lack of experience. I probably even envy their being able to experience childhood the way it should be. That's why I've always been so sensitive towards the emotional aspects of a kid's life...

Random Thought Number 5

Everyone of us have a case of mild obsessive compulsive disorder. But I don't know what is mine.

This isn't so random. Because it was raph who mentioned about the ocd theory. But I realise I really don't know myself very well. It occurred to me that even though I've always known that I cannot stand flash photography during concerts very well, it never occurred to me that my tolerance for it is way lower than other people. I never thought of it as my "pet peeve" either, till Vanessa used the term during jazz concert. It's rather ironic that I try to know people as much as I can, yet I don't know myself very well. I want to...but it's so difficult to get to know me. Now I sound like I'm not one person. LOL.

There is supposed to be a Random Thought Number 6 here. But I forgot what is it.

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Anyway peoplez (especially CQ), send me

piano music

leh. I in desperate need for it. For mugging purposes. LOL.

Labels: musing, random, thoughts

1:45 PM

Friday, May 23, 2008

Random Thoughts

Had a couple of rather random thoughts (and behaviors) this week. Plus ever since J2 year started, it feels as though daily events are a blur and don't feel as significant as they used to. Thoughts are too random to be omitted from the blogging..

Random Thought Number One

Extramarital sex should be outlawed.

Please don't ask me why this thought just suddenly came to my head one day while I was walking home from the MRT. As in, I've always believed strongly that sex should only be within marriages, though for not-so-conventional reasons. Nevertheless.......This is too random le lah.

Random Thought Number Two

People should constantly remind themselves not to content with current situation, but to constantly step out of it, explore new things and know new people.

This may not be as random as the first, since I think I've always subconsciously believed in this, even if I don't always practice what I believe. However, I just can't figure out why the sudden realisation and awareness.

Random Thought Number Three

Sometimes, you tend to be the least surprised by the things you thought would surprise you the most.

This must be the least random of the thoughts. It's more like....a new experience which translated into a conscious discovery.

Labels: musing, random, thoughts

11:00 PM

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Guardian Angels

I know sometimes times are hard, and I want to be here for you. But at times, it affects me, even if less so now. There is GP common test tomorrow, but right now all that I'm doing is worrying about you. I've been weak in a way - I need constant assurance that I'm loved, cared for. This was shaped by past experiences and life-scarring memories from childhood. We are both not being drama, extra, or whatever term people may call us. Though I admit I may be childish. And so, yes, I'm aware of my need. So how am I going to be there for you when I'm not strong enough for myself already? Yet, I know you're even weaker than me. That you need even more support than me. And I'm the only one you can turn to. I need to be able to hold on. And at the same time, remember not to rely on others too much, not to burden others too much and in the process hurt myself. I need to stand strong and let you rely on me. Somehow I've gotta learn.

If I'm your guardian angel, who's gonna be mine?

Labels: GG, K

10:32 PM

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Continuation of Definition(s) of "belated"

And then after I put Roger's famous quote (as featured in my last blog post) as my personal message on messenger.....I have this conversation with woonie.

woonie ㋡ says (11:18 PM):
oh f- i always had the impression that belated = something along the lines of "sincere" for the last 14 years, after I first saw that word.
what. the. hell? for real?
okay so

<3 Zambia! says (11:18 PM):
wait. waht???????????
you think it means sincere????????

woonie ㋡ says (11:18 PM):
i've been sending "happy belated birthday!!~~" messages on time to pple?

woonie ㋡ says (11:19 PM):
i wait until 12.01am on that person's birthday to send an sms that says "happy belated birthday"

<3 Zambia! says (11:19 PM):
.
yea i noticed. but i thought you mean 1 min later than 12mn
right
wait. you know that roger's understanding is wrong right

woonie ㋡ says (11:20 PM):
ya, because my understanding is different, but nevertheless wrong

woonie ㋡ says (11:21 PM):
then i went to define:belated on google
just to make sure

<3 Zambia! says (11:21 PM):
lol.
i can't believe such a common word and so many people just assumed it to be different meanings. lol

woonie ㋡ says (11:21 PM):
because it's so commonly affixed with birthday

woonie ㋡ says (11:22 PM):
as in happy belated birthday

<3 Zambia! says (11:22 PM):
.
lol

woonie ㋡ says (11:22 PM):
rawrrrr

<3 Zambia! says (11:22 PM):
[beethree] says (11:21 PM):
Uh.
Happy sincere birthday doesn't make sense.

woonie ㋡ says (11:22 PM):
but still
um

woonie ㋡ says (11:23 PM):
that was how i thought back in P1.
I saw my mother write on the wrapper of the birthday gift
and that impression is etched in my mind

<3 Zambia! says (11:23 PM):
LOL

Labels: random

11:27 PM

Definition of 'belated'

I wish I'm not so tired these days.

Anyway, long time since I last blogged, and so I decided to come online and share this lovely quote.

"I always thought that belated means happy."
And this was from Roger. *applause*

LOL LOL LOL.
J2s seriously have no life.

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On a very happy note, I recieved a really really nice pretty wallet from Stacy and Eugene! Yay! Thankies!
(Wah...so fast join finances le arh. LOL. XP)

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Oh. And people. I realise how old outdated my j-pop collection is getting. At least a few years old. Start sending me songs, so that I don't have to hunt them down. =P

Labels: birthday, random, school

9:32 PM

Saturday, May 03, 2008

=)

http://green-poppies.livejournal.com/31383.html#cutid1
Nice shoes!

Dance concert last night was really really good. Though I agree that modern dance owns all, but I liked two of the Chinese Dances too. the Jasmine one and I can't remember the second. It was really obvious that they put the better dances in the second half after intermission, but this is the norm for concerts anyway. I like Alone really really much, and I like the last dance as well...BollyHolly I think it was called. Haha.

Talked to Mark yesterday and thought about things a bit. Now I know I had been guilty of succumbing to the rebound effect before. Not recently, but I have. Some time ago. Thus that would mean I'm prone to it again. I think I need to be careful..

Some flowers are really pretty don't you think? Never knew there's a difference between an open red rose and a closed one. A red one means Love, but a red rosebud means "A symbol of purity and loveliness". Interesting. And I find a lot of very very pretty flowers. Like Calla Lilies...I never realised White Tulips are soooo pretty too! Snowdrops too! LOL.
(A lot of the flowers' meanings make good pick up lines actually. Like...you can check up the meaning, get one of the flowers, give it to the girl and tell the girl its meaning. Quite sweet. LOL. For example, Viscaria means "Dance with me". Isn't that cool? LOL.)

I need to know Roger Ong's favorite color. Seriously. Sorry that I forgot.

Ahhh...so sian and random today. I don't want to write essay. boo.

Labels: random, school, shopping

1:47 PM

THE PRINCESS

name; melissa chan meiyi
age; 18
bdae; 210490
location; singapore

hates; hypocrites, betrayers and traitors
loves;

dr...(+)

more;

ad...(+)

~~adp~~ ~~rgs~~ ~~rjc~~

~~1/1~~ 2F 3M 4M 5P 6Q ~~106~~ ~~206~~ ~~310~~ ~~410~~ ~~08S05B~~

~~purple house~~ buckle ~~buckle-buckley~~

adp: ~~it club~~ ~~library~~ ~~eng drama~~ ~~chinese dance~~ ~~swimming~~

rg: ~~handbells~~ ~~library~~ rjc: ~~film society~~ ~~chinese orchestra~~ japanese cultural club (once in jcc always in jcc!)

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I'm a girl, who's normal most of the time, but weird otherwise. My nickname in primary school was blurqueen, which was upgraded to BBQ Bizzarely Blurqueen in Secondary 2 during Primary 6 class reunion. I have a huge variety of interests, so I end up being very poor in time management.

random;
Friends, my brother and sisters, and my computer.
I take birthdays very seriously.
I love roses.
I love the late night.
I love manga and anime.
I love my cats, (schro)dinger and newton.
I love concerts.

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