Wednesday, July 11, 2007
This com I'm using has a serious problem. It always hangs when I type my post on blogger. It hanged on me twice already. So I shall type the post in notepad and paste it over. =(
I dislike typing any post twice. Coz it then loses the spontaneity most of my posts have.
I wasn't in the weird mood today anymore. And I wanna thank Wynne. For talking to me. It really helped. I sorted out a lot of stuff which has been going on inside me for quite sometime.
Finally went for British Council today, after forgetting about it for two whole weeks. The new teacher was quite alright, although the others thought of him as boring. I thought he's boring too, but I didn't think Jane did any better. Nevertheless, I prefer Jane. Sigh.
For film soc meeting, we brainstormed a bit about the school tour video. I suspect Lizheng (the councillor in charge) memorized the exact terms which were conveyed to him. According to him, the video must be "professional, sophisticated, fun, interesting and
". LOL. We've gotten some ideas, but nothing concrete yet. Which is bad. It means we have an uphill task ahead of us and it is due in two weeks time. XS
Other than that, we kinda slacked. Naichien planned for us to edit the AIDS video but since there's only the interview done, and it's one of the least urgent projects we have at hand, we changed our plans. Watched Youtube videos!!!! I showed them a couple minutes of the Final Fantasy parody...but then Ms Veluri came to lock up so we didn't finish it. Oh well...I'll post the link! =)
http://youtube.com/watch?v=pNzFE8rNPQU
I know I've talked about this before..But it still amazes me how people go through the same experiences. Been blog reading and it happened again. Someone wrote something which is terribly similar to what I've written just two weeks ago. And it so happens that I found out through conversation with others even more similarities which I shared with that person in school today.
I think this process of finding similarities between you and a specific person is a cycle. It comes in bouts...in waves. It's amazing how we are all so different yet the same. We have different personalities, interests and lives, but yet more often than not, we find ourselves on the same boat as someone else, sometimes someone who you never thought you could relate to. Or sometimes, it's people you expected to be able to relate to in the first place. Either way, it's equally amazing. It comes in cycles, because at one time, over a period of time, you may continuously find out more about a person, discover similarities which makes you feel like you can relate. And afterwards, these simply dissipitate into thin air. Perhaps the similarities are still there, but it doesn't feel as significant anymore. Or maybe situations made them insignificant. Maybe even insignificant to them though not you. But as time passes, soon you find yourself going through another round of the exact same process. Finding out more about a second person...by fate, yes, by fate..and then finding out these similarities....
Maybe 'similarities' is my 'weak link'. Not many would know what i'm talking about. The feeling of not wanting to conform yet wanting to belong.
I guess the most important thing is to not get tricked by these cycles. Something which I've been trying to do, though how successful I am, I do not know. To get tricked into believing...To believe by itself is a risky thing to do. To believe is to become vulnerable. And I don't think I'm ready to get hurt once again.
I think maybe I'm not really nonchalent about life. It's more like contentment. So much that I'll take whatever life gives me. Even death. yes, that would explain a lot..
Maybe that novel I just finished reading is affecting me? HAHA. 'Death Comes In The End' by agatha christie. GOOD READ! read it. XP oosh, it's overdue though. I'd better remember to return it tomorrow. urgh. XSLabels: school, thoughts
