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Tuesday, March 06, 2007

the late night.

Read Royce's blog just now...it's nice to know that there are still pple fascinated with the feeling of late night, the feeling of (as royce put it) "being somewhere between day and night". Far too few people spend the night awake with me...In fact, I only know Shan does it. But Shan's no longer fascinated and is just doing it out of habit. Unlike me. 50% of the reason why I stay up at night is because of this addiction. The other 50% is because I can't sleep...but maybe subconciously, even my insomnia is because of this addiction?
I already think too much in the day, yet majority of my thinking happens at night. Maybe the late night is very conducive for thinking..

I guess everyone wants someone who they can show their true colors to, without any qualms or whatsoever. Someone who knows you so well, understands your every thought, every emotion. Someone who will never ever ever betray you, or abandon you. It's no longer an issue of whether one is superficial. It's difficult to find that someone not because the people are superficial, but mainly because of the need for people to, consciously or sub-consciously, protect themselves. Why else would you hide your feelings and thoughts away from others?
I hate this "distrustfulness", no matter how little, which exists among people. I'm born to trust. And I think I will continue to trust, as is my nature, until someday I get hurt so bad, that I just wilt away. fade away into the background. maybe even die.

Anywayz, I'll snap out of the mood! as if i don't think too much already. argh. haha...oh, I FAILED ECONS BTW. I haven like failed fail lah, but i am going to fail. so doesn't make a diff when I make that announcement. Was pretty sad over the test at first one...until after gp, my sadness for something else made stuff like test results so unimportant.

Stephanie's not staying in RJ. She's been posted to VJ.

GDM. SERIOUSLY. I hate i hate i hate i hate JAE! it's scary...you see people cry everywhere. why the hell do they make us go through 3 mths of bonding and then threaten to split us up for?? As if the two years of JC isn't short enough. What's the meaning of friendship to government agencies, like the moe? ZERO. urgh. heartless freaks.

and hien oso..

they'd better approve steffie and hien's appeals...or i'll track all those involved in rejecting the appeals and murder them.
ok, maybe not. i am being childish. but still. urgh.

I really love all my friends. This is not a cliche sentence. I really do. I love the opportunity to get to know everyone who I've gotten to know. Even those who I don't really like a lot. and this is not straight from the bible or any other holy religious sources. it's true.

I don't know how to repay my dear friends. They may not even know how great an impact they've made in my life, even those "not-so-close" friends. I wouldn't have made it so far in life without them. Nearly 17 years. That's quite a number of years..Minus the ones who betrayed me or abandoned me, I owe the rest a lot. More than I could ever repay. THANKS.

oh, and i've just joined film soc. so yea. and i'm gnna do the orientation 2 photo-slideshow video! woot! haha..
hmm...is it me, or are my blog entries getting longer and longer..

Labels: school, thoughts

7:44 PM

THE PRINCESS

name; melissa chan meiyi
age; 18
bdae; 210490
location; singapore

hates; hypocrites, betrayers and traitors
loves;

dr...(+)

more;

ad...(+)

~~adp~~ ~~rgs~~ ~~rjc~~

~~1/1~~ 2F 3M 4M 5P 6Q ~~106~~ ~~206~~ ~~310~~ ~~410~~ ~~08S05B~~

~~purple house~~ buckle ~~buckle-buckley~~

adp: ~~it club~~ ~~library~~ ~~eng drama~~ ~~chinese dance~~ ~~swimming~~

rg: ~~handbells~~ ~~library~~ rjc: ~~film society~~ ~~chinese orchestra~~ japanese cultural club (once in jcc always in jcc!)

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I'm a girl, who's normal most of the time, but weird otherwise. My nickname in primary school was blurqueen, which was upgraded to BBQ Bizzarely Blurqueen in Secondary 2 during Primary 6 class reunion. I have a huge variety of interests, so I end up being very poor in time management.

random;
Friends, my brother and sisters, and my computer.
I take birthdays very seriously.
I love roses.
I love the late night.
I love manga and anime.
I love my cats, (schro)dinger and newton.
I love concerts.

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