iBleach- Soul Generation of Music

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Once again, a almost livejournal post. But it doesn't feel touchy enough to qualify for livejournal so it's here. I say this each time I type something a bit more serious that's not really addressing anyone huh.

Bottomline: Meiyi is kinda crazy tonight. Maybe partially because she's very bored. But now that she thinks about it, it becomes so clear. Everything has been going so well, yet not really well afterall.

I cried today. In the morning. And then I'm laughing with my parents on the way to Malaysia. In Malaysia in the car in the backseat, I cried silently again into the pillow, and then I'm laughing again afterwards.

Meiyi is crazy no?

Her sister just comes in to show her no respect, resentment for no reason. she despise her.

and the reason for the backseat crying session...piano. her mum ended up telling her to pretend to pretend her parents don't know about it and go ahead. will she do that? don't know. she feels like she's taking advantage of her mum's love.

life's been really good to her thus far and she knows it. so what's up with her discontentment.

You know, people who knows me. There's always very extreme judgements of me. I'm either very childish, or too mature. Too emotional, subjective..or going by the rules too much and being too practical. Too idealistic, or too pessimistic. Arrogant, or lacking confidence.

what am i really.

why can't i go after what i want. with no worries. no obligations. nothing pulling me back. burdens and everything.

sometimes i really really really want another life. this life is tiring.

but to get out of this life you lose all your friends and family too. that sucks.

there's never a perfect solution bah.

P.S. meiyi is not bothering to edit her outrageous grammar which became even worse than usual when she's not sane. which is now.

Labels: life, rant

11:10 PM

THE PRINCESS

name; melissa chan meiyi
age; 18
bdae; 210490
location; singapore

hates; hypocrites, betrayers and traitors
loves;

dr...(+)

more;

ad...(+)

~~adp~~ ~~rgs~~ ~~rjc~~

~~1/1~~ 2F 3M 4M 5P 6Q ~~106~~ ~~206~~ ~~310~~ ~~410~~ ~~08S05B~~

~~purple house~~ buckle ~~buckle-buckley~~

adp: ~~it club~~ ~~library~~ ~~eng drama~~ ~~chinese dance~~ ~~swimming~~

rg: ~~handbells~~ ~~library~~ rjc: ~~film society~~ ~~chinese orchestra~~ japanese cultural club (once in jcc always in jcc!)

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I'm a girl, who's normal most of the time, but weird otherwise. My nickname in primary school was blurqueen, which was upgraded to BBQ Bizzarely Blurqueen in Secondary 2 during Primary 6 class reunion. I have a huge variety of interests, so I end up being very poor in time management.

random;
Friends, my brother and sisters, and my computer.
I take birthdays very seriously.
I love roses.
I love the late night.
I love manga and anime.
I love my cats, (schro)dinger and newton.
I love concerts.

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