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Saturday, August 04, 2007

Of all bitterness.

Today's not all great. Not all that bad either. Caiqiang ended up staying at home coz his "mum pms". Daniel the lazy pig considered sleeping as something more important than his friend of 10 years. Sammie went tution with yining. every saturday from now on too. I didn't know about it, until her mum told me over the phone..she didn't tell me. =( And shan somehow "missed" me after arranging to meet with me. multiple times. like it's a sign i shouldn't look for her to ask for advice over something.

Nope, I'm not depressed. I somehow suspect that shan wishes that I am depressed though. Why else am I suppose to "not kachow her unless you are depressed"?
it's okay shan, i forgive you. you don't have to feel guilty about it.

I suppose I sound quite bitter. boo. but no, i really am not sad. just not quite right i guess. nope, i'm not slipping back into the oh-so-moody-i-am-sad-lonely-and-pathetic-nothing-in-life-is-right mood. except maybe I am a little sad and lonely. plus a tinge of pathetic-ness.

I suppose it really is time for me to relearn how to live by myself and be alone. If I did it back in sec 3, why can't I now? Relearning something is supposed to be easier than learning it the first time afterall. But it is difficult. I got out of hurting myself by opening up afterall..Now, learning to go back means I'll have to be extra careful.

living by myself would be a good idea though. it would mean, no younger sisters who act like your mother. no more disapproving glances. but well, i shall not day dream. FOCUS.

1st step, be cheery and happy. done. now onto the 2nd step, be more independent. physically and emotionally. easier said than done.

NEVERMIND! AT LEAST I HAVE KBOX TO LOOK FORWARD TO!!!! YAY! X)

[EDIT: 10.39PM] I just completed ALL 19 levels of MOTAS!! WOOT!!! Can't wait for level 20! this game totally rocks! but then, i checked it's history up on wikipedia. It has super irregular release timings..like 6 levels in 2002, 4 levels in one go in 2003, ONE level in 2004, ZERO levels in 2005 and 2 levels in january this year. which means I'll never know when level 20 will be out. or it there will ever be a level 20 in existance or not. sigh.
thing is, I completed ALL existing levels! yay! meiyi is pro. XP

Labels: life, rant

9:33 PM

THE PRINCESS

name; melissa chan meiyi
age; 18
bdae; 210490
location; singapore

hates; hypocrites, betrayers and traitors
loves;

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~~adp~~ ~~rgs~~ ~~rjc~~

~~1/1~~ 2F 3M 4M 5P 6Q ~~106~~ ~~206~~ ~~310~~ ~~410~~ ~~08S05B~~

~~purple house~~ buckle ~~buckle-buckley~~

adp: ~~it club~~ ~~library~~ ~~eng drama~~ ~~chinese dance~~ ~~swimming~~

rg: ~~handbells~~ ~~library~~ rjc: ~~film society~~ ~~chinese orchestra~~ japanese cultural club (once in jcc always in jcc!)

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I'm a girl, who's normal most of the time, but weird otherwise. My nickname in primary school was blurqueen, which was upgraded to BBQ Bizzarely Blurqueen in Secondary 2 during Primary 6 class reunion. I have a huge variety of interests, so I end up being very poor in time management.

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Friends, my brother and sisters, and my computer.
I take birthdays very seriously.
I love roses.
I love the late night.
I love manga and anime.
I love my cats, (schro)dinger and newton.
I love concerts.

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