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Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Come and go - Fever

I'm convinced that these on-off fever that I'm experiencing these days are closely related to stress. Serious. First time round was after CO SYF. Though I really had no reason to feel any unease since I wasn't involved, I was nevertheless nervous for them. And I felt so exhausted afterwards.
This morning, another bout of that on-off fever, which started from last night. I suppose I haven't been taking it easy these couple of days. So, I'm taking it easy today! and I feel so much better now. haha.

As I was taking MRT to school later in the afternoon when I felt well enough to be up and about, I thought about stuff. And got reminded of people. And I realized, that more often than not, the number of random daily items or occurrence which can remind you of someone is an indicator of how significant the person is to you? Or had been in your life. Just like how jay chou, agatha christie and east coast and many more things remind me of person a. and how salty popcorn and drums remind me of someone else. and how the color yellow reminds me of a third. i associate things and events with people around me. everyone around me...almost everyone is of some significance to me, that is the problem i think.
I think I'm too Gang Qing Yong Shi already. haha.
I really still miss him. sigh. Oh well, I am still moving on with life! yesh. i mean, what's the use of staying where I were when he doesn't even know that i'm still there? not his fault though...I mean, i was the one who convinced him i moved on. So I shall just keep trying to move on. As long as I don't stop, even if i slip back two steps for every three steps I've taken, I'm still advancing regardless. I may have left a permanent trail which serves to remind me forever of the painful route I've taken, but at least I'll get nearer to the happiness which may be waiting for me in the future?

speaking of which, i think i revealed too much to someone today again. argh. was in a telling-people mood. gosh. shouldn't talk to people when i were emo.
but speaking of which, no one ever notices I'm emo anymore...unless i deliberately wanted the person to know. shan says that's in fact a higher stage of emo, coz i'm not showing it in an obvious way? HUH??? that i'll emo about people not noticing i'm emo..DOUBLE HUH? lol. don't make sense. whatever.

I shall look forward to film soc chalet! lol. about the only sure thing which guarentees relaxation and no work during the holidays now. XS

Watching Miss Universe 2007 now! X)
Maybe being a girl makes me much more critical. But really, at first when I heard Miss Japan won the title (from fransisco), my first thought was that "she wasn't that pretty what..." But watching Miss Universe, I changed my mind. She has style...she was different. She's so confident of herself, and so unpretentious. Open with her movement, and a bit daring. I like her. haha.
maybe not the conventional kind of miss universe, but i like her even better than last year's.

Miss USA's sweet.
And I kinda like Korea's too! so mild...and sweet...as koreans are. haha.
and India's is....
gosh, I'll just run out of adjectives at this rate. haha. I like pretty women!
haha. Weird. It's times like these that makes me feel like...It's not bad becoming lesbian. Haha. So many pretty women to admire every year!!! haha.

Labels: holidays, rant, thoughts

11:36 PM

THE PRINCESS

name; melissa chan meiyi
age; 18
bdae; 210490
location; singapore

hates; hypocrites, betrayers and traitors
loves;

dr...(+)

more;

ad...(+)

~~adp~~ ~~rgs~~ ~~rjc~~

~~1/1~~ 2F 3M 4M 5P 6Q ~~106~~ ~~206~~ ~~310~~ ~~410~~ ~~08S05B~~

~~purple house~~ buckle ~~buckle-buckley~~

adp: ~~it club~~ ~~library~~ ~~eng drama~~ ~~chinese dance~~ ~~swimming~~

rg: ~~handbells~~ ~~library~~ rjc: ~~film society~~ ~~chinese orchestra~~ japanese cultural club (once in jcc always in jcc!)

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I'm a girl, who's normal most of the time, but weird otherwise. My nickname in primary school was blurqueen, which was upgraded to BBQ Bizzarely Blurqueen in Secondary 2 during Primary 6 class reunion. I have a huge variety of interests, so I end up being very poor in time management.

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I take birthdays very seriously.
I love roses.
I love the late night.
I love manga and anime.
I love my cats, (schro)dinger and newton.
I love concerts.

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