iBleach- Soul Generation of Music

Monday, April 02, 2007

I lie inside myself for hours, and watch my purple sky fly over me.

I'm in an amazingly tranquil state. That's rather unusual..especially since usually after a day of highness i sink into depression. haha.

But yep, I'm in a tranquil state. As I was walking home from the MRT station after watching MEP concert, I spent some time looking at the stars. And found myself thinking. If the stars really were as fairytales depict them to be...say faeries...how lonely would that be? To twinkle lightly alone in your own place in the dark blue, beautiful but sad sky. To be so weak, yet there's no one to depend on. Perhaps those who can't stand it in the end, and perhaps all eventually can't stand the loneliness in the end, they risk unknown consequences and fall to earth, desperate for company, yet end up finding themselves wither away. alone once again, even as they fade.

Maybe next time as I look up into the sky, I can think of myself as company to these poor creatures. Give mental support or sorts. Maybe that way, I'll be more useful. More reliable...to be relied on. and not just a burden to everyone.

Part of the sky tonight over here at woodlands appeared deep violet. At least it appeared deep violet just now as I was walking home. I love violet skies. It gives an unreal feeling...yet so beautiful. Violet...purple more towards the blue than the red..

PE today was slack. We did five items...as usual, I failed SBJ. But, after getting tips from Samantha and Ms Lim, and after staying back for 15 minutes to practise with the moral support of Candy, my beloved senior (candy! now cannot say i bully you le! see? I'm sooo nice. XP) , I managed to go beyond 170! hurray! not bad...a jump from a failed grade to a C. hmm...

MEP concert was really great. Serious. It has great variety. The performers are generally great, I love shunta's piece with his erhu. I've always loved the sound of piano. Now I realise I love the sound of erhu with piano too. although jiangning thought the piano kinda ruined shunta's piece. maybe if the piano went softer? I love the trumpets too...the one with boyi playing the piano. I donno boyi personally. but it's easier to remember him I guess with so many people around me mentioning him to me so often. And I absolutely loved the piece yezi place. another girl who I donno. but i love it anyway. and royce's composition was....nice. serious. and not bias. it's easy listening. for me anyway. there were a couple of others which caught my attention too. but maybe coz my brain is dead. i just cannot remember.

oh. i just realised that i'm typing super slowly. and my sentences are getting shorter. i think i'm getting tired. argh. and i just forgot what else i wanted to blog. argh.

Oh, i just remembered. Xinyi came back to visit today. So it was "San Dai Tong Tang" (3 generations together). haha. Candy was there...Clara was there..Xinhui was with us for a short while. Tianni rushed off in less than a minute. I'm happy to see xinyi today.

ok. now my thoughts are really incoherent.

i think i shall attempt a short nap. before i continue work. or blogging additional stuff.

oh! one more thing. there was info on h3 subjects going on ard class today. but my sec 4 gpa sucks. nvm, i'll see how my mid years results are b4 deciding whether to take econs h3 a not. haha. but then candy says the moe-based one not fun. =( and wangting says it's not easy. obviously. okie. i shall find out more from more pple. but first things first. pass the nxt econs lecture test.

OKAY. NOW I REALLY NEED A SHORT NAP. URGH.

Evanescence - Imaginary

Swallow it up for the sound of my screaming
cannot cease for the fear of silent night
Oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming
the goddess of imaginary light

In my field of paper flowers
and candied clouds of multiply
I lie inside myself for hours
and watch my purple sky fly over me

I linger in the doorway
our alarm clock screaming monsters calling widening
let me stay
where the wind will whisper to me
where the raindrops as there falling
tell there story

If you need to leave the world you live in
lay your head down and stay awake
though you may not remember dreaming
something waits for you to breath again

In my field of paper flowers
and candied clouds of multiply
I lie inside myself for hours
and watch my purple sky fly over me

Labels: school, thoughts

11:38 PM

THE PRINCESS

name; melissa chan meiyi
age; 18
bdae; 210490
location; singapore

hates; hypocrites, betrayers and traitors
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~~adp~~ ~~rgs~~ ~~rjc~~

~~1/1~~ 2F 3M 4M 5P 6Q ~~106~~ ~~206~~ ~~310~~ ~~410~~ ~~08S05B~~

~~purple house~~ buckle ~~buckle-buckley~~

adp: ~~it club~~ ~~library~~ ~~eng drama~~ ~~chinese dance~~ ~~swimming~~

rg: ~~handbells~~ ~~library~~ rjc: ~~film society~~ ~~chinese orchestra~~ japanese cultural club (once in jcc always in jcc!)

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I'm a girl, who's normal most of the time, but weird otherwise. My nickname in primary school was blurqueen, which was upgraded to BBQ Bizzarely Blurqueen in Secondary 2 during Primary 6 class reunion. I have a huge variety of interests, so I end up being very poor in time management.

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I take birthdays very seriously.
I love roses.
I love the late night.
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I love concerts.

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