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Friday, March 30, 2007

Extreme emotions

Note; to those who i bothered abt an hour ago, i'm feeling better le. i guess i was on the verge of losing control just now. so yea, it's okay now. sorry for worrying/bothering you guys.

Anywayz, i curbed my impulse on closing this blog once again. i'm not seeking attention through blogging...i think. since i know that most people don't read my blog anyway, it can't be counted as seeking attention right? it's more like...giving people who wants to know more about me an avenue to know me, and also feeding my own desire of someday finding someone who actually completely understands me (which is quite impossible in reality, but i still hope).

So yes, luckily i didn't blog earlier...or else I would have "false-closed" my blog again.

Anywayz, I tried small talk with my mum today! something i haven't done for some time. I guess camp gave me some time-out to think. think through what i was thinking before camp, in a detached environment. then after camp, jiangning helped a bit. which was y i felt so bad just now, but it was necessary for me to realise stuff. and acquire knowledge to change. so yea, i think my life might just improve. now i feel quite good. I was impulsive, but now i've calmed down. i shall just learn to take life easy. haha.

blogging shall be my vanity and self centered tool. outside blogging...aka in life, i shall aim to turn less self centered. that sounds logical??

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Class Camp
High elements. I did absailing. that's a wow. but then i chickened out last minute at flying fox. that's a non-wow. that's failure and pathetic actually. this might be actually be my last chance at flying fox and i gave it a pass. there will most probably be no chances for me to try next yr...and there are no camps usually in universities. which involves flying fox. so yea. i'm stuck. idiot, idiot, idiot. i rather be hydrophobic then hypsophobic/aeroacrophobic (found these terms http://www.phobialist.com/). okay, maybe not. i love water too much. change that to Cleisiophobia. haha. check out the meanings yourselves.

and i think i feel better in class now le. haha. i guess camp does help. in a not so obvious way. bleh.

Labels: school, thoughts

10:39 PM

THE PRINCESS

name; melissa chan meiyi
age; 18
bdae; 210490
location; singapore

hates; hypocrites, betrayers and traitors
loves;

dr...(+)

more;

ad...(+)

~~adp~~ ~~rgs~~ ~~rjc~~

~~1/1~~ 2F 3M 4M 5P 6Q ~~106~~ ~~206~~ ~~310~~ ~~410~~ ~~08S05B~~

~~purple house~~ buckle ~~buckle-buckley~~

adp: ~~it club~~ ~~library~~ ~~eng drama~~ ~~chinese dance~~ ~~swimming~~

rg: ~~handbells~~ ~~library~~ rjc: ~~film society~~ ~~chinese orchestra~~ japanese cultural club (once in jcc always in jcc!)

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I'm a girl, who's normal most of the time, but weird otherwise. My nickname in primary school was blurqueen, which was upgraded to BBQ Bizzarely Blurqueen in Secondary 2 during Primary 6 class reunion. I have a huge variety of interests, so I end up being very poor in time management.

random;
Friends, my brother and sisters, and my computer.
I take birthdays very seriously.
I love roses.
I love the late night.
I love manga and anime.
I love my cats, (schro)dinger and newton.
I love concerts.

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