Saturday, February 17, 2007
maybe coz i haven been blogging for sometime...by law of diminishing returns, this blog entry is like giving me maximum satisfaction...or relief rather?
i know i crap. but i m not really in a gd mood. and that is weird to most people. coz for most, cny eve would mean ang-baos to come...and family reunions. but for me, family reunions are.....not dreaded. but weird. i love my family. but i get the feeling they are so much better off without me. that they don love me as much?
5 mins ago, a pole propped against the wall fell onto me. my dad came rushing in, worried about the pole and mentioned nothing along the lines of "are you ok?", despite my scream when the pole fell. and i am not expected to show that i am upset. slight signs that i am upset over the incident and my mum casts warning looks at me. warning me not to ruin the mood for the family. and just seconds ago, she came and lectured me over it.
i'm always the odd one out in the family. different ideology...not following family norms...everything. and now i am restricted. even my emotions are restricted.i don't even remember when did this start? When did i start feeling suffocated at home?
and i think my sister hates me.
emo-ed on the roof of blk b in rj today...kinda fell asleep for half an hr or so. the roof was soooo nice. i think bbdf play is like affecting me....haha. but maybe not lah. rooftops used to be my favorite places for sometime. when did i stop going to rooftops? i don remember..the last time i've been up to one to emo was like....sec 2? i forgot how nice it was to be on the roof...till today. pace of life really overwhelmed me then..
anyway, enough emo-ing. not healthy. i am making a cny resolution! to emo less. weishan says that maybe i am not letting my family in enough...that it's not my family outcasting me, but me outcasting myself. so i shall give it another try. germie said i give up too easily before..so i shall try persevere! can't let this issue keep affecting me this way..I HAVE A LIFE TO LEAD! i think i m siao.
ANYWAY, ANYWAY, ANYWAY...VALENTINES DAY!
it was good. seriously. so happy, i always like receiving things. gives me a warm feeling. haha. man, i so shameless. haha. i gave out hershey kisses, hair clips and wooden pegs! haha....and i got 2 real roses(1 fr yewei and 1 fr secret person that i still can't figure out who), 1 real flower (fr eugene) which i donno its name, and 1 fake rose (fr mel ho)!~ and to whoever that is who gave me the red rose....THANKS! =))) i really loved it. haha...it's still like thriving in a tall makeshift vase! haha....so are the other 2 flowers. this is like the first time i get flowers which survived for sooooo long! haha. i thought eugene's flower died already when i got home, but after plopping it into water overnight, it lived! haha....now soooooo pretty!~ =P i wanted to take a photo of all the prezzies, chocolates and flowers together one....but i couldn't resist the temptation of the choco, so i ended up eating them b4 i could take photo X( haha. so forget it lah...
BBDF like very stressed now. esp wangting....i hope we pull it off just fine. but very "xin teng" watching rehearsals...i feel like i'm either very disruptive or very useless like that. haha. wangting cut a LOT of lines in the script....haiz. the script was nice actually lorh...why only give us 20mins..? =(
Tidying up my room now. today's like the dateline for tidying up. cny eve mah. i think i might change the "feng shui" of my room. haha....maybe give the keyboard a permanent place or something. haha.
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name; melissa chan meiyi
age; 18
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