iBleach- Soul Generation of Music

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Sun Rays

Haven't been looking at my surroundings in a long time, but today as I was walking home from the MRT, I admired the sky. Once again I marvel at how beautiful the world is, what a miracle that it was created. Simple, but pretty. Rays coming from behind the clouds, the clouds overlapping each other in layers. Simple, yet complex at the same time. It's times like this that I love life.

I wondered too, the reason why I find the most spectacular views upwards. Perhaps, it takes more effort to catch a glimpse, and thus its greater value? It's difficult to walk on the road with head leaning back for long periods of time after all...

Maybe it's simply because of my lack of sleep, yet inability to sleep due to coffee. (I slept at 4am this morning, slogging through physics.) But I feel zen. At peace. I remember how I used to look at the leaves of the trees while walking under them for hours. Observe how the sunlight filters through them, and enjoy the beauty. What happens since (and it's not the first time) is that life gets so complicated, hectic, and I forget all about it again. Once in a while, I take a breather..The joy of rediscovering beauty is indescribable.

Sometimes I wonder if I think too much into things. How millions of thoughts run through my head all the time. How I need to talk to myself so that the thoughts don't overwhelm my mind. (Although that I have learnt to curb myself very much. Most thinks I'm nuts when I used to talk to myself that much.) Although girls do think more in comparison, sometimes, I wonder if I think even more than what the other girls do. Or maybe...perhaps...it's just that I'm more expressive. I don't think significantly more than the others, just express it more.

This post probably should have gone under my private livejournal blog. How long has it been since I last posted something so close to my heart on this blog? I stopped posting stuff like this, I think, when Naichien commented how I blog everything, sensitive or not, on my blog. I think consciously, and sub-consciously, I restricted myself a lot since then. Partially too, that I recognized...accepted the fact that the probability of finding a soulmate who understands you 100% is quite slim. Very slim in fact. That sometimes, keeping your identity to yourself can be the best way, no matter how lonely. Why give yourself false hope that someday, no matter how romantic this may sound, that your soulmate would chance across your entries and sing with your heart?

Perhaps part of this entire episode can be traced back to sibling relations...I thought my sister was my soulmate, then I realized I couldn't be more wrong. But that's another story all together.

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On a sidenote, I totally screwed up my physics today. Was pretty depressed initially, but now I've brightened up. And then got Mark and Kah Hou to help me with math. *GAsp. I needed help for almost every single step.* I'll probably screw up math tomorrow too...but I shall worry about that tomorrow. For now, I shall eat dinner. And then study. XS

And probably I won't blog posts like this here very often. So for those who thinks that this blog is gonna turn back into the emo blog it once was, don't worry lah, it won't. XP

Labels: thoughts

7:35 PM

THE PRINCESS

name; melissa chan meiyi
age; 18
bdae; 210490
location; singapore

hates; hypocrites, betrayers and traitors
loves;

dr...(+)

more;

ad...(+)

~~adp~~ ~~rgs~~ ~~rjc~~

~~1/1~~ 2F 3M 4M 5P 6Q ~~106~~ ~~206~~ ~~310~~ ~~410~~ ~~08S05B~~

~~purple house~~ buckle ~~buckle-buckley~~

adp: ~~it club~~ ~~library~~ ~~eng drama~~ ~~chinese dance~~ ~~swimming~~

rg: ~~handbells~~ ~~library~~ rjc: ~~film society~~ ~~chinese orchestra~~ japanese cultural club (once in jcc always in jcc!)

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I'm a girl, who's normal most of the time, but weird otherwise. My nickname in primary school was blurqueen, which was upgraded to BBQ Bizzarely Blurqueen in Secondary 2 during Primary 6 class reunion. I have a huge variety of interests, so I end up being very poor in time management.

random;
Friends, my brother and sisters, and my computer.
I take birthdays very seriously.
I love roses.
I love the late night.
I love manga and anime.
I love my cats, (schro)dinger and newton.
I love concerts.

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