Sunday, February 04, 2007
Saturday was unexpected. I really shouldn't be blogging about this, but somehow I'm still blogging about this.
Was late for CO prac and ended up not doing anything there coz there wasn't enough zhong ruan. I left the prac early to go for BB Drama Fest rehearsals cum discussions. It ended round 2pm. We slacked around...fooling with the piano...Ye Wei was trying to play Shang Hu Hai....so Eugene acting pro "came to the rescue"...haha. Then we tried playing the batch song and we ended up singing a very distorted version of the batch song coz eugene keeps getting stuck at a certain part of the song. haha. We went to eat lunch.....and proceeded to wisma sky garden to chill. And this is where Eugene and I officially conclude that Sherry and Ye Wei are siao. Seriously. They have no sense of danger. REally daredevils. HAHA. The odac teacher should have allowed ye wei to join odac man...stupid odac teacher. haha....oh, but i forgot to tell ye wei he still got 2nd chance. got 2nd intake. oh well...will tell him later.
Then we decided to crash the Humans party! aka the party for humans. KIDDING. humanities party lah....supposedly the humanities class seniors organised it. but we were wearing like school tees and shorts etc, so we went over to Ye Wei's hse to borrow clothes. haha. we played monopoly! so long never play the game le.....think the last time i played the game was in sec 3? during the 6Q reunion at the chalet. that was fun....so, anyway, ye wei wanted to play mindtrap...but we didn't. so we just played monopoly while he tried to quiz us with the mindtrap questions. seriously, i was three-quarters dead by then so i didn't really listen to half the questions...but some of the questions were damn cool. and knowing me, u'd guessed that i forgot all the questions. other than the "hole in one" question. so yup, interested go buy the game yourself bah!~ provided that it's still being sold. haha.
After monopoly we chose clothes shower and stuff. His clothes damn big!!!!! why are all the guys so big sized? the pants won't even stay on my hips for half a second! i had to whole the pants. sigh.....luckily man invented the belt. basically everyone improvised. eugene wore this yellow hawaiian shirt with a grey vest inside. plus a red bandanna. and sherry found this rather nice simple plan shirt which is soooooo long that it looks like a mini off-shoulder skirt-dress. and she wore it as that! with fbt underneath of coz....haha. then she used a purple tie as sash. looked really good! i think somebody at the party said that this is scary...coz we are wearing guys clothes yet we turned out okay. haha.....
After the party, we didn't feel like going home. And since the party was real near the east coast beach..we went there to chill! so yup....chill chill chill....haha. so basically i stayed there till sunrise. yup. i realised i really donno how to blog about this..so....i'm not blogging! yay! haha. but sooooo sad, my first sunrise, and the sky was cloudy. sigh. nvm.....nxt time bah. maybe June hols I'll go there again!! =P and I'll bring a tent along with me! (saw pple putting tents up on the jetty)
(insert: don bother reading the below. it's crap and it doesn't even make sense. plus it's not coherent at all. yup. but i don delete stuff after i type them. so yarh..)
But yesterday got me thinking again. I realised that i've actually started to censor posts on my feelings and sensitive thoughts ever since i got into jc. is that considered being fake too? plus, it's true that i changed totally from primary school...and even from secondary school. and i don't really trust pple completely anymore. isn't that supposed to be bad...? and i don even know my own feelings anymore. i donno when are the times when i am really sad and not becoz i think i shld feel sad. and when are the times i am really happy, and not just trying to act happy so that pple won dislike me for my depression. i don't even know if i really like a person (friend or crush) anymore. what if i am some lonely desperate person, who lies to herself that she really liked these pple, just so that she could have more friends? this is really weird. i really shouldn't think too much....in case i start getting depressed again. it's like taken me so much effort to get back cheery again..i don wanna go back. oh well..okay. fine. shit. i shall shut up.
but sammie's like plague with so many problems recently. i feel guilty for being so "problematic". i mean, compared to her, i'm so much more carefree! i can't tell her everything coz it'll juz add on to her burden? all my close friends no longer have time to read my blog anymore.....jc life really threatens to drive pple apart..
aiya...ciao. or this entry would be neverending.
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